ME.

   I am who you want me to be,
I am perfect in your eyes
But to myself,
I am nothing.
Nothing enough to be called—
Perfect,
  In your eyes
       Nothing without the version that you see.

      To you I only exist in a fairytale.
You only see pierces that fit the puzzle you made for me.

I want to peel back your skin
and show off all the layers no one gets to see
I want to crawl inside your skin,
and be that layer—
you never thought,
you needed.

I'll add new layers
that make your skin soft.

maybe then I will understand—
why your skin is so roughly made,
burnt from all the thorns of the world
stepped on and left marks that never seemed to heal.

but you still dont show it, do you?

what’s hiding in those layers of
fake happiness,

pain,
misery?

How do we cut off all the dead skin
make you blossom—
into new skin, that doesn’t cut you with every touch?

I walk, unsteady.
legs shaking,
my face deathly pale,
voice losing its tone.
I fall down, but i get up,
cant stop myself from falling,
the floor beneath sinking,
looking for a steady ride.
that doesnt exist these days.
the wheels always fall off,
all comes crashing.

Love,
The Little Things.

The brush of your perfectly made hair,
Pushing it to the side—
While it skates through the wind.

Holding your pretty glowing arms
In the sunrise glow,
You in that dress - that you picked out
Jumping through the fields
Happy as could be.

The late night talks.
Only our hearts can remember
The sound of your heart beat—
Matching mine—
While we talk about,
What is to be.

Our little playdates—
To our favorite spots
That only we know.

The sound of your voice,
That only calls to me.

All your little quirks,
That make my heart flutter.

Have you loved someone so much,
They know there your heart—
You know there your armor?

When you know your soul—
is one.

How long—
would you—
wait?

Would you wait—
even if i told you
that time wont stop for us?

Would you wait
even if i said—
my heart has been drowned,
in love before
and then broken in the same moment.

Would you wait
even if it hurt you.
your heart burning,
burning
from the inside out
while you think of me?


Would you wait even if the clocks forgets the time
and everything doesnt make sense anymore.

Would you wait even if my words hurt your heart and pierce you effortlessly
is it worth—
is it worth the pain.

How much are you time are you willing to sacrifice
Even for a touch of love around your skin.

Would you wait—
When pieces of you will never feel the same?

Time is against us, my love
They say time heals all—
But why does time push me away from you?

I am not a promise my love,
I'm a slow burning fire that never stops hurting.


Would you wait..
for hours, months, years, just so you can feel a tight rush of adrenaline—
that ends in 2 seconds.

Would you wait if every heartbeat you gave me never came back?
and the words of ours are empty.

How long would you wait, my dear—
Till your fire runs out?