You are made of poems.
Utterly somber,
yet beautifully written,
plunging into the abyss
of a lost soul.

You are a symphony of sounds.
Starkly melancholic,
yet a soothing lullaby.

You are bursting with flowers.
Seemingly ordinary,
yet wonderfully blossoming,
oozing with sunshines,
rainbows, and butterflies.

Your eyes light up with the excitement of the season
For those of us without peace, we have no reason

We struggle and we fight just to feel a sense of belonging
As your excitement builds for the holidays
And your children are longing

Many of us no longer want to fear this season
I try as hard as I can, as I can’t give up for one reason

I never want my husband to feel as if I don’t love him
Because I’ve lost all that I once had to celebrate ‘tis the season

I carry this pain around inside my heart
My mind wanders back to before it turned dark

I miss that life, as chaotic as it could be
I miss the people that are gone, the ones I’ll never see

I wish for a renewal of the spirit I am missing
It's been so long; I think I’ll just go on wishing

Her soul
Was in a noose,

She broke free -
She cut loose.

She threw the rope
Into the sea,

Finally, after four decades,
For the first time, she was free.

She forced herself to accept
The things that she could not change,

She learnt how to protect herself -
However weird it felt;
However strange.

For the first time, ever,
She listened to herself,

With this, she found a remedy
For her exhausted mental health -

Finding this,
She found the grandest of wealth;

She finally found out
How to truly love her 'true' self!

By the Grace of God,
Came this divine gift,

She is blessed -
She is forever grateful
For this mental shift.

~ All thanks, be to God,
Her one and only,

For blessing her
With his unconditional love -
He remains with her
Even when she feels
hopelessly lost,
Extremely anxious,
And unbearably lonely.

By Lady R.F ©2016