Jess: Favorites

Oct 2015 Jess

Taylor Stardust

You interlocked your fingers with mine
And you said it was love.
You pressed your lips to my forehead
And you said it was love.
You gave me wilted flowers
And you said it was love.
Your words clutched at my throat
And you said it was love.
Your hand slipped and left a red mark
And you said it was love.
You left a bruise this time
And you said it was love.
You broke my wrist now
And you said it was love.
You shoved me into a mirror
And you said it was love.

I'm lying cold in the ground now
And you still said it was love.

t.s.

#love #sad #abuse

Jul 2015 Jess

Too much

Jul 2015 Jess

GieAn

Too much

Too much of something is bad enough.*

Do not trust
     too much.
Do not feel
    too much.
Do not love
    too much.
Do not care
    too much.

Those 'too much'
can hurt you
       so much.

Note to self.

#love #pain #hurt #toomuch

Jul 2015 Jess

I'm FINE

Jul 2015 Jess

Nicole Dawn

I'm FINE

I'm dying
But I'm not dead

I'm fine

I'm bleeding
But there's still blood

I'm fine

I'm suffocating
But there's still air

I'm fine

I'm falling apart
But my core's intact

I'm fine

*I'm lying
I'm not fine

#tired

Mar 2015 Jess

Unspoken Confessions

Mar 2015 Jess

qi

Unspoken Confessions

Hello,
     (dearest)
It's been a while
     (since you've left me good for dead)
We haven't talked, but
     (i can't get you out of my head)
Well, how are you?
     (you haunt my everyday dreams)
Has Life been treating you well?
     (my heart is bursting at the seams)
I heard that there's someone else
     (each night i die of suffocation)
Does she treat you well?
     (its the ****** six degrees of separation)
I suppose I'll take my leave
     (without you my life has been so mundane)
I'm sorry for bothering you
     *(how i can get past this pain?)

I can't tell if I'm having really bad mood swings or if I genuinely miss you.

I suppose you can read just the italicized words...?

#love #you #breakup #unrequited #jealousy #heartache

Mar 2015 Jess

not again

Mar 2015 Jess

ejb

not again

IM IN LOVE AGAIN
WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESNT LOVE ME
I WANT HIM SO BAD IT PHYSICALLY HURTS
IT HURTS SO BAD
BUT I JUST GOT OVER AN UNREQUITED LOVE
I DONT WANNA DO IT AGAIN
NOT AGAIN
I CANT HANDLE ANYMORE OF THIS PAIN
I JUST WANNA BE FREE
I JUST WANNA BE OKAY
I JUST WANNA BE MYSELF AGAIN
IM NOT THE SAME WITH THIS PAIN
IM NOT THE SAME
I AM NOT OKAY
I AM NOT OKAY AGAIN
OH ******* IT
NOT AGAIN

I don't have the strength for this anymore

#love #sad #unrequited

Mar 2015 Jess

Don’t Wanna Say Goodbye

Mar 2015 Jess

Mira Torres

Don’t Wanna Say Goodbye

How do I say goodbye to you
Just thinking about it makes me feel blue
You're always around me as if nothing happened
While I'm like in a different world, trying to blend

How does my heart say goodbye to you
When it's the first time in months it felt a love so true
The happiness you gave me made it beat again
But now you're leaving it broken

How does my mind say goodbye to you
When everything I see is a memory of us two
We're both looking to find ourselves that were lost
From our past relationship's chaos

How does my soul say goodbye to you
When all of it is deeply connected to you
Maybe it's not in this lifetime
But I'm sure my soul will still find you.

How do I un-love you?
Is it really something I can do?
How do I say goodbye to you,
If deep inside I don't want to.

Written around June 2014

#love #goodbye #unrequitted #notaboyfriend #ex-nabf