Cat - Hello Poetry

Cat Sep 2019

I feel weird,
And I feel relieved.
Your face is so soft
And your breathe is so warm.

This is a new feeling,
Sure but so unsure.

I want love
And I want no more pain.
I need you here,
And I need a promise to never leave.

New love,
Old expectations.

#dream #love #expectations #new

Cat Sep 2019

A goodbye

The drive to the airport
Quiet, an unbarring silence.
Sweaty hands interlocked;
Afraid to let go

Afraid I might cry if you let go;
One last goodbye;
Until I see you again,
Until we intertwine again.

#love #departure #airport #goodbye

Cat Aug 2019

Sunshine that clears my grey skies

Where grey skies fill my mind,
You are the sunshine that fills me .
You are the sunburn that annoys me,
But also warmth that comforts me.
When sunshine creeps in and wakes me,
It also gives me light to lead me.
The sunshine clears the grey clouds away.

#love #sunshine #weather

Cat Jul 2019

I need to be like the rest

It chases me;
Waiting to ambush and attack,
Nerves overtaking my chest,
Avoiding to impress.
Why can’t I just act like the rest?

Bruised and battered,
Used and old,
But you’re so beautiful
Every scar, scratch a story told
So perfect, yet so many scars.
Why can’t I just see like the rest?

Scared and afraid of what to come,
Afraid of more scars.
Useless and imperfect
I want to be perfect;
But there is no undoing a scar.
Why can’t I just heal like the rest?

When you lie to yourself,
It hurts the most;
Trying to smile away the shame,
Disappointing a past self.
A past shell of myself grasping,
Gnawing at my own expectations.
I need to be like the rest.

Any critiques would be really appreciated!

#sad #past #childhood #regret #expectations #disappointment

Cat Jul 2019

What I love about us

The way we fit perfectly in each others arms;
Or how we explore each other minds freely and openly.
This is what I love about us.

Light has consumed my tender heart;
Even now as you grasp it a ray escapes.
You hold my heart kindly and without hesitation.
As my heart grows heavy with all the hardships of life, I know you will still hold my heart with the same tenderness as we grey.

You keep me sane and safe.
Everyday I get closer;
Closer to your trust,
Closer to your heart,
And closer to be your everything.
This is what what I love about you.

#love

Cat Jul 2019

In a moment

A shallow breath crease these pages,
A cry for help goes unnoticed.

The cool heat of this itch,
Embers of light return,
Even if it’s just for a moment.

Where the excessive taps fade and stirring quiet ensues; the tears sting these wounds.
These wounds I have found a warm, numbing comfort in.

#sad #self #harm #relationship

Cat Jul 2019

Why is the sky crying?

The clouds erupt in tears;
Winds thrash with fever.
The sky cries today;
Unrelenting tears making waves below.

Fish careen through the seas;
Swimming in reckless abandon.
Plants sweat with desperation;
Why is the sky crying.

Walls ***** to mask the need;
Raindrops race to feed.
Dogs hide to ease the fear;
Concealing the want.

A want and a need;
Grow and intertwine.
We mask what we need;
Announcing what we can not want.

#random #sad #confusion