You say You want to breed _

me

You want to put Your seed _

in me

You want to get me face down _

naked

just don't need another Mr. _

Fake it



my brown skin spoiled for Your _

tongue

my heart beats a rhythm to Your _

drum

my essence is in sync with Your _

sensations

my love GPS is linked to Your _

vibrations


You can read my body's _

mysteries

You produce the scenes in my _

fantasies

You command my loyalty and _

attention

You wish i'd obey Your _

direction


the only gift You want is to _

control

i am the award You want to _

own

my belly burns for Your blue _

fire

my skin tied in Your knotted _

desire


Winter 2016

lips trembling _ veiled heart

channeling my future

i want _ will part

although my soul _ enraptured

wont be your secret wifey

sleepin' alone _ you frontin'

we down _ but i'm sugah free

leavin' my thirst _ wantin'

trapped in your afflictions

unleashin' my_ fear

no longer addicted

my mind _ crystal clear

tryin' to maintain _ pretend

i'm fine _ it's a good situation

inside my mind _ we end

you _ are infatuation

your on notice now

mind on a mission

my spirit wont allow

the flesh _ submission

taking off the chains

removing that *** bind

and whatever remains

will be impossible to find

Fall

You and me, that's all I can see

        and some how that's what I want it to be.

When you're not around, I want you here,

        but I don't want to tie you down.

There is so much that I feel

        that I can not write, but I do know

        that you're right (for me).

My ambition is to be free.

        Not to have anyone directing me.

        And maybe that's bad for you and me.

We are lovers, and I know what my vows are,

but I need more. I know there is more for me.

More than just security. I don't know maybe I'm wrong.

Why do my goals take so long to reach. And yet I have you to teach me about life, as your wife.

Sometimes I feel like I have so much to give, until my dreams collapse and I burn out, and

disgusted, refuse to live.

And even though we have nothing but troubles, it's you and me.

You are there for me to lean on. You help me pick up the pieces of my shattered dreams,

as I shed many a tear I can't replace.

The emptiness and loneliness that torments my soul and the faces of the people I love vanish

But yet there is still you and me.

a play date for us

Your serious eyes

i know You just

want this prize

trying to find a way

to make me play?

suckin' on my neck

while i try to deflect

rubbin' on my belly

tryin' to get me ready

hot lips on my shoulder

yea..

making me bolder

****..Your hands on my collar

hot breath on my ear

i need to holler

You Ssh... nothing to fear

using all Your senses

those commands You speak

to break my defenses

oh ****!

i'm so **** weak

and..delicious thoughts

i'm having about You

about rope, around me

one, two maybe three?

lets do a scene

You can tie me high

beautiful knots down low

squeezing my pie

i think You know

We have a code

You know the rule

i bring the fire

You own the fuel

Your voice makes me melt

and whats that scent?

is that your finger i just felt?

please...***? i just heard

my ***** what?

take me...

**** the safe word!

ive loss all control

i should explain

a play date with You

is delicious pain


Summer

to find myself

i need to get out of my pain.

pain you gave to me

that still lingers like ashes.

it must be swept away.

but i can't find the broom.

are you trying to hold me back?

i must get free, to get out of me.

every time i reach rock's bottom

it's a new depth.

when i think the pain is gone

it's just wearing a new mask.

life has left me waiting on the curb again,

and i'm sitting down this time.

no one has offered to carry me

i guess i have too much baggage?

will i ever be above superficiality?

or are we all disguised? and i've noticed mine.

the pain is too deep.

i can't bring it to the surface

i want to get away

and leave it behind

but it has become a part of me.

it will be my cross.


Spring

cause you see a doll, in lace and silk

and i need the boy, who yearns for the milk


take me once _ hell take me twice

what you find will never suffice


i know i have a man, but i want to own the boy


you ain't rich and I ain't poor, if you got a bed _ i got a door

you call me a doll, the size of a toy


my walk is deliberate, and i walk a high wire

but i know you ache, and i know how to spark that fire


how can you pretend you don't desire me?

when i'm around you _ Your dreams are free


i'm the drug you cant stop using

the lover you keep refusing


tell me you don't love me _ tell me you don't want me


Spring 2015

you are drinking and smoking me

and i am feeling your energy

your breath surrounds my body

with the taste of my ****


in too deep we're on a roll

and you're set on automatic

i'm losing my ******' control

GPS cruising destination *******


your eyes beg let me

have your aching desire

i need you to take it

come quench this **** fire


your hot breath in my ear

mmm _ how you wanna do me?

i'm choking back the fear

wet between the knees


in too deep we're goin' to implode

you're touchin' brown skin parts

my resistance will _ gonna fold

ooh no! please stop! but it starts


you're going ******* the foreplay

turning my orchid drizzle to rain

my body can't take any more delay

got me thirsting __ sexually insane


Summer 2016