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Apr 2020 · 54
Art Left Me
Alexis Apr 2020
My world was once painted in different colors

of curiosity, emotion and passion

The world used to be wonderful without order

with words flowing around unpredictable motion

Art gave me feelings, laughter and crowns

Art made the world wonderful with all its sparkles

It pushed me high up, I don't wanna go down

I stayed up and happy as I ran in circles

but reality crushed the colors within me

tainted in black, seeing gray, and blinded in white

a life once blissful, flying so free

now, I feel like a helpless and controlled kite

Days continued on as my soul starts to drown

Light and colors gone, this seemed like a fallout

Art left me alone, with a rusty crown

Art left me for a reason I cannot figure out
Been gone for a while. Now, it's back.
Apr 2020 · 58
Unknown Emotions
Alexis Apr 2020
Sudden surge of countless unknown emotions

Rushing current of seemingly lonely waves

Swept my soul in an unstoppable motion

With my its core all crushed and impossible to save
Mar 2019 · 57
Alexis Mar 2019
The burning sensation across the air
The tingling feeling down my toes up to my hair
All the things I never thought I'd do
Well, now I did, because of you

Hot and dangerous, oh I shall burn
From chilly ice to the fire I turned
Warmth of your fire all across my ice
Melting me softly, as my thirst they suffice

Oh sweet fire so exciting and warm
I would never thought I'd dive right in your arms
Sweet fire the burn you gave lingers from within
Oh sweet fire, everyday, for you, I'll gladly sin
Your memory burns in my mind and it never goes out of fire
Mar 2019 · 434
So I Didn't
Alexis Mar 2019
It was late at night when I opened my eyes.
I couldn't see a thing.
Pitch black.

Then it was suddenly hard for me to breathe.
I gasped for air but nothing came.
The face of everyone I cared about flashed before me.
I need to breathe.
I need to.

But I couldn't.
So I stopped trying.
It was meaningless. 

I could not breathe, so I didn't.
Mar 2019 · 118
Wasting Time
Alexis Mar 2019
I don't need someone else to waste my time

when I've done this much myself

Perhaps I'd be one of those books 

Left in an almost empty shelf

Never anyone's first pick

Never have I been chosen 

And as time ticks quickly

My destiny seemed frozen

Though it feels like time quickly slips away

Now I'll surely see

That time wasted was never wasted

If I waste it on me
Feb 2019 · 1.4k
Your Hand
Alexis Feb 2019
My soul is exhausted,
it whispers for me to rest
But my heart says, “Fight. Don't give in. This is a test.”

My brain says “Do whatever you want.”
and  it wasn't a lie
So I dropped my head, held your hand tight
while I hoped to die
Dec 2018 · 186
Falling Endless
Alexis Dec 2018
I took the leap knowing you were waiting down there to catch me
And now I felt like I am falling endless
Nov 2018 · 346
Never Be Saved
Alexis Nov 2018
Broken, beaten, down on both knees
Screaming, crying, as my world suddenly ceased
Down on the dirt and eating the dust
The luster of once sturdy metal, now filled with rust

Broken beaten, won't anyone look my way
Screaming, crying, don't know what to say
Down on the ground and digging my grave
For in all certainty, I can never be saved

Just a surge of depressing thoughts
Nov 2018 · 155
The Firework and The Sun
Alexis Nov 2018
He was my Firework
Beautiful, mesmerizing, and the perfect rhyme
He made me feel all kinds of things
with only just few ticks of time

But you, my Sun
make me giggle in all kinds of ways
you give me a certain kind of warmth
the certain kind that stays

Throughout the day
and even in the darkness of the night
You'll always find a way
to reach my heart with your light

I loved the Firework
It was amazing, surreal and fun
But know that I love you infinitely more
And I always will, my Sun
Nov 2018 · 269
Alexis Nov 2018
I'm out of ink
I am out of life
There's a missing a link
and it's dulling my knife

I'm missing my spark
I am missing my light
So I give in to the dark
As it devours me tonight
Nov 2018 · 127
Alexis Nov 2018
Do you ever get that feeling
of wanting to just lie down
and pretend you're dead?

oh wait.

Perhaps I'm one of those
who gets up, smile and goof around,
and pretend to be alive.

— The End —