In a time of loneliness I seeked company
In a time of despair I seeked comfort
In a time of pain I seeked relief
In alcohol I found relief.
I found power in control
I lost control
I lost me
You were the same
You lost you
In your world full of men you seeked a woman
In a world without a mother you seeked mothering
In your world of unresolved pain you seeked relief
In alcohol you found relief
You lost control.

We lost control.

We had one thing in common;
Our addictive pain relief.

A little person
So full of life
Starting on a blank slate.
Looking and observing
At everything around them
Soaking it all in like a sponge.
Be a good influence
One of respect.
Teach them well
They begin innocent so any evil is taught
Fill them with love as they do you
Smile, hug educate and play
A love can never be as big
Motherhood
Nature-vs-Nuture
Nurture 1
Nature 0

A picture
A memory
A message
A moment you may never get back
Live in the moment, capture the finest bits
*point, flash, snap

Sitting in the waiting room
Could cut the tension with a knife
Waiting for a stranger to tell you news that will determine your life.

Heart pounding, breathes get deeper
Waiting for your name to be called
Bad news, darkness, a sense of loss, legs go weak and falls...

Months of treatment, agony and sickness
Wishing the time to go by
the reality is harsh ;
Losing hair, becoming too thin and losing the sparkle in your eyes

Getting weaker day by day
Every movement is a struggle that comes with a sigh
Arranging for family and friends to visit
to say their final goodbye


It comes to a stage where hope slowly dies much like the person in the hospital bed
They will always be with us, in our hearts and on our minds
Can't get the last few months out of my head...

En Vogue said: 'Don't ya wanna be more than friends.'
What started as a friendship, has turned to love...
But only from my end.
I stand at the side line, watching you love another girl,
Hoping that one day you'll realise that I could be your world.
I support you no matter what, I want you to be happy and content
But the selfish side of me wants you all to myself
Pity you only see a best friend..

The end comes quickly- sometimes unforeseen
It was going too well,
It had to have been a dream.
The fire in my heart grew bigger day by day
If only I was to know it would be suddenly taken away.
Now my heart feels empty,
Nothingness inside
Plastering a smile on my face,
to cover the heartbreak I choose to hide.