we often like to convince ourselves
love can conquer all
love is medicine
love is the answer
love is a hello
we like to convince ourselves
love is enough
it's a lie
love is alive
Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs in your throat
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling
You know how when you’re not ok but you try so hard to pretend you’re ok that it becomes a ritual
surrounded by others
surrounded by love
- p. winter
Steve - Hey
Steve - Hey
Steve - Hey how are you doing?
Steve - Hey I’m just trying to get to know you.
Steve - Wow so it’s like that?
Steve - You won’t even give me a chance?
Steve - I know you see the Facebook messages.
Anna - Hey sorry I don’t feel like talking. You are not worth my time or attention.
Steve - I’m good now.
Steve - I found me another lover.
Steve - All I wanted was your time and your attention, but you placed my heart in an emotional detention.
Steve - To me now you just another potential lover I could of loved and cared for. But you loved your ego more.
Anna - I’m sorry.
Anna - At the time you wanted me I was busy.
Anna - I want you now though, even though you have another lover, I envy her. Your persistence showed me you were worth my time. But my ignorance encouraged me to ignore my heart and feed my ego.
Anna - Now it’s sad to watch you go.
Anna - I wish I knew better and did better. Now loneliness comforts my ugly mess.
Steve - I guess this is goodbye, because with persistence I also come with, love, patients and loyalty. I am glad I never gave you the best of me.
Steve - My lover truly deserves all of me. My time and my energy, my flaws and insecurities. Thank you for letting me find the best of me.
Steve - You were the light that had to shine in me for me to find the best of me. Your rejection brought out a better version of me.
Steve - Love stings like a blind bee it can kiss anyone and make them feel it slowly. For those it never kisses their hearts forever remain lonely.
— The End —