New Day starts
As the clock strikes at midnight
Yet my heart fails to start
As it lingers to a woman
Who remains in the past.

Why?

Why can't my heart move forward?
Trap in the past which won't last
Casting away the future
Embracing the torture
Stubbornness eats me alive

Yet..

Yet this kind of life never made me sad
Because for every second loving you
Gives me energy to love you more
Even if seeing you with someone else
Drags me to hell... Or not.

Drinking ***** tonight
Smoking under the moonlight
Make out today
Party tomorrow
Enjoying every second of my life
Yet
When I became sober
When the last cigarette dies
When the day ends
When I reach the end
When fun becomes tiring
I always remember...
I am now alone
Since the day that I
Was betrayed by the friends
Whom I thought
My support in life.

As tears slowly drops my chin
The rain smooths my crumpled heart
Drowning the sadness away

When I just became a stepping stone of what she become today sometimes makes me wonder...
Did I just born to witness this moment?

We have so many pictures together
Since our middle school years
Until this very day

When you left me without explanation

I burn one photo everyday but kept the last one.

You know why?

Because part of me crazily wants you even if I know you will never return to me

Ideally you're the person I want
Who can ideally make me perfect
Who can ideally bring the bliss of my youth
Who can ideally be my world.

But I forgot a very important fact
And that is to be realistic

There's no such thing as ideal person
We can never force someone to change
For us to be perfect
For us to taste the bliss of our youth
And to be in our ideal world

Because this is the reality
We just need to make the best out of it
And be content with what the person gave to us.

"sorry i lied to you"
a sharp intangible knife
came from my mouth.

"it's fine i understand"
a drop of tear rolling
down to her cheek.

i want to remove that **** tear
but i can't
for i don't feel worthy of being with her

because i am
a liar