Draw like you want to beat the **** out of God for limiting the colour spectrum to something finite.
Write like the ******* paper is on fire and your pen is kerosene and it’s burning and you’re screaming but it feels so ******* good.
Realize you’re a ******* *****.
Realize everyone’s a ***** and the sun is only going to explode and the world is only going to burn and we’re all going to die in fire, but it’s only going to hurt for an instant.
But you love the pain, that’s why you beg him to paint you black and blue and make you bleed so you can see how disgusting you really are.
Remember that god has abandoned us all and Jesus died for your masochistic tendencies.
So, crucify me on your parent’s bed and **** me like repenting can save us.
**** me like you want to save us.
But what’s salvation to bruised knees and praying to the tune of incoherent screams and begging and pleading and Yes Sir and Thank You Sir and an ****** so hard your body joins your head in the clouds.
Learn languages and **** his **** in all of them.
Turn *** into art the way he turns you into his masterpiece.
Live like your biggest debate is whether or not to drink a pint of beer, or a pint of blood – and choose the blood every time.
**** yourself every second of every ******* day and remember that you’re alive and you’re not so well and never look your grave in the eyes until he tells you to.
Scrapbook every bullet hole you've kissed, keep mason jars for the dirt he rubbed your face in, plant a cigarette **** for good luck, always ask permission, remember you’re disgusting, remember you’re dying, remember you’re alive, remember love, remember passion, remember anger, remember this.