I'm home alone
my thoughts are starting to take over
the more I think the slower I breathe
I thought I fell in love again, but I was wrong and now I'm stuck with somebody I can't stand kissing because he isn't you
you ended it 6 months ago, why are you still in my head?
I'm no longer sane
I wish I could love him like I loved you
I don't think I'll ever love again
my life is falling apart
everything is going wrong
my mom kicked me out and I'm not even concerned
because
all I can think about is you
and how it was
and what could've been
but it won't be
because
you don't care
and you never did
you told me you loved me and left 2 weeks later, you don't do that to somebody you love
do you know how bad you messed me up?
all I think about is how much I hate myself for letting you leave
I could've stopped you
but I was so stubborn
I thought you were gonna come back,
you always did
but boy was I wrong
I think I'll miss you forever
but then again
they say time heals all wounds,
so how much longer do I have to wait?

I cannot stop writing about you. Every little thing I can remember, I've written it down.
I've written you down.
A permanent stain on these sheets.

Never had I imagined
that the feelings that
came along with him
coming back, would be
greater than those of when
he left.

People are nothing more than a blur of genitalia,
gasps,
groans,
grunts,
g-spots
to savor, then scrap.

The Catch is a rehearsed routine,
catcalls turned to cat scratches
and long blonde hairs stuck to his lapel;
his wife will make
****
sure
he'll repent.

Lip bites and ***** licks,
the high leaves long breaths
escaping quenched lips.

**** falling for you,
I'd rather
******* and leave
standing up straight

You ripped my heart in shreds
For so many years
I'm hear to tell you
I'm crying no more tears
I see no more love
That it's all over now
How will I survive?
Forgetting you, that's how.
I'm done with the pettiness
And stupid lies
Such immaturity
You get no more tries

He's hurt me
Cut me open wide
Taken out my heart
And destroyed my pride
I want to forget
I want to start anew
But I'm not sure I can
I'm not sure what to do
It's like my life has ended
The past eight years
So much pain
Not worth my tears
But I'm gonna cry
I can't hold back
It hurts so much
To see all that I lack

I have my doubts
I'm really not sure
I'll figure it out
I'll find a cure
For my broken heart
Unwillingly shattered
Torn all apart
Bruised and battered
I'll pick up the pieces
And get up off the floor
I won't look back
While I walk out the door