Everytime I look at you
all I see is innocence
a child
who's never seen
the monster under their bed
and the demon in the mirror
you have the whole world ahead of you
yet
your eyes desperately whisper,
sad tunes and notes
make an invisible appearance,
I feel them
everytime I hold you in my arms
hoping this moment could last longer
but I’m too afraid to say
because I’ve lost myself
in the mirror
staring back at you.

i’ll forgive you
when you hurt me
because i like to think
i have endless
petals to pluck
and somehow still
remain grounded


c.w.

How do I tell you
that I need you

your smile,
your laugh,
your arms to hold me tight
when I say I’m not alright,
your words to keep me upright,
even when we stay up so late
we can finally see the sunlight
emerge from the darkness of the night

Your love.
I crave you, yet
I can’t have you
and it ruins me
like poison working it’s way
to my bloodstream.
Your love.
I crave you yet,
I don’t believe you desire me in your life..

But maybe the problem is with me?
Because I will never believe that I could be good enough
for someone
so kind,
so smart,
so mesmerizing.

So who am I
to deserve you?
I’m afraid to
hold you tight,
when you say you’re not alright,
my words won’t keep you upright
even when we stay up so late
we can see the sunlight
emerge from the darkness of the night.

I’m starting to believe
I am the poison
that’s working it’s way to my bloodstream.
My words and thoughts are the ones killing me,
and I don’t want them to ruin you too.

There’s no loving someone equally.
One sacrifices more than the other
one strives for another

but equality between the two has never existed.

My head is pitch black
I can’t see anything in the back
where every answer lies,
I cannot reach beyond the line
that I’ve created for myself
to keep me out of my own mind
and the dark places that lie beyond the light.