You're not even at my door
and still
I've made a bed for you

Ordinary people find each other.
For extraordinary people, it’s much harder.

And no one saw her hurting
They saw glimmering reflections of themselves
Off the broken shards that she was made up of

I think I need to work on my
Enunciation
Because every time I say
“I Love You”
It seems to come out as
“Good Bye”

I was trying to teach you how to feel again,
But you just taught me how to be numb.

It’s my fault
I shouldn’t have found meaning in anything
I shouldn’t have believed any of your words that could implant hope
I shouldn’t have thought that you driving two hours to pick me up meant anything
I shouldn’t have seen any significance in your kiss
I shouldn’t have believed that sleeping together meant something
I shouldn’t have thought that you holding my hand meant anything
I shouldn’t have thought your telling me a happy ending to a story similar to ours meant love.
I shouldn’t have hoped that you would defy the world around us
I shouldn’t have trusted your words that said I was the only one you wanted to see
I shouldn’t have believed your honest eyes
I shouldn’t have thought you meant it when you said you missed me
I shouldn’t have been surprised when you ignored me
I shouldn’t have done any of these things
And I knew better
But it doesn’t change that my heart is breaking worthy of the Richter scale
And I shouldn’t let my world crumble before me, but
This feels like a force of nature under which I will be crushed.

Up at 2 AM
After hours of a sleep with no rest
Because even in my dreams
I can hear the absence of you