First, I see him walk through the door
He smiles, but it's not the same anymore
From across the room, our eyes meet
And I wonder if he'll ever see
The shattered pieces in my eyes
Fragments of a dream that died
But as my voice calls out his name
I begin to wonder what really changed.
How did I fool myself? I let myself go
Some place that never existed
And I should have never held on so hard
To what was never mine to start with.
Ask him how he's been these days
Nod and smile at everything he says
Think back to a sweeter past
All my hopes that couldn't last
And I almost laugh at what I did
How I lost myself bit by bit
But I'd give anything to go back
Yeah, I'd give anything to go back.
How did I fool myself? I let myself go
Some place that never existed
And I should have never held on so hard
To what was never mine to start with.
Soon it's time for me to go
I leave the room, and he doesn't follow
And I hate myself for my last try
To get him to at least say goodbye.
But he won't even glance my way
Won't see how much I want to stay
I'll take the pain of living the lie
If it's the only way to feel alive.
How did I fool myself? I let myself go
Some place that never existed
And I should have never held on so hard
To what was never mine to start with.