I
cannot
compose myself
anymore

Ive lost all motivation on loving you
Being with you is tormenting
You drag my soul made blue
And you've made me hate loving

Anger corrupts my heart
As beautiful awakenings disintegrates
You enabled my introvert
Now depression reincarnates

I'm so blue it has become evil
No remorse can be tamed
Everything seems vile
It appears I am chained

Loving you felt so euphoric
Until you cursed it for fear
Now I stand disorientated
As everything is unclear

I just... I just...
I just wanna lie in bed...
Take some more pills...
Take several more pills...
Until I drift back to sleep
Away from life
To be suspended in the unconscious
To forget
To flee
To escape