I’ve always wanted to have a friend
Someone who’d be there until the end
A companion through moments of hardship
Not a deserter who just decides to skip

I’ve always wanted to have a friend
Someone who’s loyalty would never bend
Together with trustworthiness and honesty
He’s not a deceitful liar who just manipulates me

I’ve always wanted to have a friend
To have a bond no price could comprehend
For neither money, nor jewelry could ever replace
A friendship’s bond, an everlasting embrace

As much as I know
That he loves me
Yet his silence is colder
Than an iceberg can be
And sometimes
Silence is
A horrible ferocity

Fabricate an excuse
Lost in an unknown world
I open my heart in a raining night
I submit my trust to your flaring light
Let me confess my narcissism
Let you torture with you condescension

Drown me, drown me in the ocean of silence
Beneath the withering stars,
No one here to judge
Now, look me in the eye
Tell me
Do you really care?

I love listening to sad music.
Because it makes me feel sad.
And I suppose I'm crazy for liking that feeling.
But that feeling is so nice and refreshing.
To have my stomach churn, and my hands to get clammy.
Sad music speaks to my soul.
Because I am a sad person at heart.
It was my plan, and his intentions for me.
To be sad and depressed.
But who dare to say that's a bad thing.
It's only a perception that it is.
Maybe being sad is good.
Maybe being sad helps.
Maybe being sad is the best feeling you can feel.
The angst inside is splendid.
So I'll continue to listen to my sad songs.
And I'll continue to be sad.
But do not have pity for me.
I am happy with the way I am.

Rise with me from
the ocean water and
salt. Lift me during
the sunset and dance
along the shore. Lift
me high enough to
touch the velvet skies.
Kiss me ******* the
blue ocean's shores.
Twist and twirl while
our toes caress the
golden sands. Help
me make all the shells
watching us blush and
awe as they shout out
for an encore. Kiss me
while we're both wet
from the gentle waves
splashing against our
exposed tanned skin.
Dance with me my love
till the sun sets down
and the night
begins* ~