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1.4k · Jan 2018
Need someone to numb my pain
Maria Jan 2018
̶N̶e̶e̶d̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶̶n̶u̶m̶b ̶m̶y̶ ̶p̶a̶i̶n̶.

Or maybe I don’t need someone
Maybe I just need myself
to keep my head above water
to keep my healthy mind.
I write clichés
But that’s how I feel
Does this happen to many people?
Why then do I feel so alone?
Maybe I’m as equal to all
Thinking that my problems are greater than all.
I am a dramatic girl.
Yes, I am.
Maybe I need help
But I do not want help
Maybe I am depressed
but I do not want to be depressive
maybe my sanity has gone
before I finish this poem
Yes, she’s gone
yes, in the second line.
Posted on Tumblr OneMudBlood  in 2016.10.26
398 · Sep 2018
Feel the same
Maria Sep 2018
I don’t miss you
I don’t need you
I don’t hate you
and I don’t want you back.

I don’t talk to you
I don’t write for you
I don’t think in you
and I don’t even care about you.

I don’t fell in love with you
I don’t destroyed your sanity
I don’t forgive you
and I didn’t say the worst things about you.

I’m not angry at you
I’m not saying it’s all your fault
But I’m so better without you
And I wish you feel the same.

I don’t wanna you miss me
I don’t wanna you need me
I don’t wanna you hate me
and I don’t wanna you want me back.
Published in @OneMudBlood Tumblr in April,2018.
324 · Sep 2018
Invisible self
Maria Sep 2018
My invisible self loves the afternoon
The colorful sky, the smell of sea
The feeling of a love coming
A good song
Has dreams
Do not want to have your feet on the ground.
Your head is in the clouds
Falls in love with the darkness
Break free when dancing
Loves fiction
Smells like books
And is happy
And when my skin shivered
Oh,i know
I’m on ecstasy.
I entered on my one
In my invisible self
324 · Dec 2017
Saying goodbye for her
Maria Dec 2017
Mother,
Forgive me
But I’m not happy.
I cry lots everyday
and I thought in the death
in the day i was born.

Mother,
Forgive me
But i not have proud who i am
I never asked to live
and i don’t feels nothing besides sadness.

Mother,
Forgive me
But can’t try anymore
i’m tired and i
i want close my eyes
and stop all the pain

Mother,
Forgive me
But i don’t remember when i was happy.
I look this old picture
The child smiling at the camera
and is not me!

Mother,
Forgive me
But I hurt you and i will hurt you anymore!
I never went the greatest daughter
and never i can be.

Mother,
Forgive me
But god can’t save me
i just will find the peace i want
In the death!

Mother, forgive me!
But i have to go!
Is not your fault.
You can understand me?
Please, have mercy!

Mother, i’m sorry!
Please, don’t cry for me
I don’t deserve your tears.
I will stay good
I swear, i will stay good, mother.

— The End —