I can’t get her off my mind
You’d think I’d like this find
I thought alc was supposed to help you forget
Bet
Naw she still creeps in my brain
It goes around like a circle train

After all this time
Why did she enter my dream state
She didn’t even speak she was like a mime
Is this my fate
To dream about women that left me
Now she’s back in my head
I thought I was over her finally
I wish I dreamt about a different woman instead
For those of you who know
This one is about Giovanna, the one that cut me out
You know that she did a number on me, I got so low
For a little while I admit that I did pout
In this dream she hid from me under a table
I still don’t understand why
That was not cool
I almost wanted to cry
After I found her she power walked away
She had a big frown on her face
Let me tell you, I was not okay
I wanted to grab her hand but I felt like it wasn’t my place
When she drove away I snapped back to reality
Again I can’t understand why I dreamt about her
I was so close to finally being happy
Maybe she’ll give me another chance now that she’s older
And if not I might just cry
And wipe away those tears and ask once again “Why”

Early morning
3 hours after midnight
Listening to music
Trying to drown out that feeling
Wishing everything was alright
I wanted her and I to just click
Her name starts with L
Always getting in my feels
That's me, that's Ben
I'll admit it, I fell
It's like I unknowingly took love pills
I just can't go through this again.

You are a beautiful woman who has my heart
When we meet I'll never want to be apart
I'll hold you daily in my warm embrace
When you're sleeping I'll leave kisses on your beautiful face
If you ever get sick I'll help you make a full recovery
Our time together will be full of glee

Time really does go by fast
Simpler times are now past
Responsibilities and Adulting
Not everything can be smooth sailing
People tell you to act your age
For me that's equivalent to being in a cage
I don't like being told how to behave
I might as well be a slave
I'm my own master
Sometimes I wish time would move faster
Faster to a point where life can be sweet

Times are changing
What I used to endure now sting
I'm constantly feeling excruciating pain
My mental state goes to a different plane
What I used to shutout comes back in
And I seek out distractions again and again
Will I ever get out of survival mode?
Negative times don't last is what I'm told
But those are words that fall on empty ears
I just want to end this survival mode with a Cheers!