For a moment in time and space
I looked at you and admire
The beauty that lies beyond that painful eye
The loveliest smile that hides beneath your melting makeup,
And realized;

Thirteen years,
I locked myself up
In a cage, deep in my closet;
Scream and scream I did but all that came out was tears that run down my cheeks every night
I prayed and prayed but the answer was all the same;
Stay.

I'm hurting
Far beyond I can take to a point where I wish I never asked Him to tell me to stay
Yet
I persisted
And here I am
Together with you
Yet deep inside I'm alone

I looked at you
With your makeup on
With your lovely scarf covering your hair
I'm in pain
This is goodbye

Thank you for killing me inside

I remember that moment,
The day passed and the sun has lost its shine
It was beautiful
I was there on the edge looking
Listening

And these thoughts
These thoughts
They become a path
They kiss and they join into one and turns into passing memories
That we listen to as we dance in the rain
While our hearts are in pain

I didn't jump yet
They killed me
They **** you
They **** us,
These thoughts

Your soul,
Was an embodiment of perfect imperfection,
Existing on the same plane with all of your insecurities
Banished from the land of the love ones
Gone with the wind as you fly trough the vast emptiness of your own universe

The lights that shine
As you swiftly
Gently moving across your memories
Disappear when you came to the realization
That you are no different
From the man who kicked me out of his house because you make out with a man
From the woman who supposed to raise me but slowly killing you instead
From the person who uttered words of hates as people like me pass by

You used to be the wings of Gabriel,
Covering me with the blessings from God
Now you're nothing
But a homunculus stuck in between glasses
Framed and frozen

I've had enough
Your love
Your care
You sweet talks and lovely stare

I've had enough
Of you face
Your attitude
Your words
Your insolent way of thinking
Your racist joke

I've had enough
Let me die
**** me twice
But you'll never change

Love is a fundamental aspect of life
that exists within us
As long as feelings lingers around our head
Love will exist

But

It will perish
As time flies
Like these flowers that shed their lovely skin
As spring come
and disappear
When summer starts to burn

It could **** you
Like the drugs, you inhale
On those nights when they came to grab you
Drag you
Deep in those thoughts that you locked inside

It's gone
It's too late
Now it's winter
What's next?