Lostling

Lostling Mar 4

As a child
I hid under my covers,
Fearing the monsters of the night
Lurking beneath my bed.

But now they live in my mind,
Crawling through the cracks,
Festering— even in the sun’s warmth.

No blanket can shield me.
No lamp, no lullaby.

I close my eyes
But still, they linger.

The worst monsters
Aren’t under our beds
But inside us

#night #dark #demons #fear #nightmares #anxiety

Lostling Mar 2

A Path Divided

If I betray my freedom
I betray myself,
Becoming a stranger in my own skin
Quietly echoing the voice of the crowd.
But if I betray the rules,
Break free and stray from the paved path,
I betray my comrades
I betray the people I lead

If I break free, I stand alone in exile
But if I conform, “I” do not exist anymore

#freedom #self #responsibility #conform #society #expectations #rules

Lostling Feb 26

Why?

There has to be a reason
Why I'm here on Earth,
And not in a world far away, where I can be anything more
More than a child who can do nothing but cry

Why am I here?

#questioning #reason

Lostling Feb 25

Useful

Use me
Hurt me
Abuse me
Exploit me

But please
Don’t toss me away

I'm sorry

#used #worth #replacement

Lostling Feb 25

Crimson Stained Snow

Blades clash, shattering
Unspoken words, a sword falls
Silence, then weeping

Friends from different sides spar together for the very last time

#haiku

Lostling Feb 25

I am Misplaced

I am not the black sheep, so why don’t I belong?
My wool stands out amongst the heard, a speck of dirt on a
pristine
marble
dress.
I am not flicked away, but forced into another’s coat
To match the sea of white.
I am a stranger in my own body,
A mess of shredded wool and yearning
Yearning for my home

“Return to home!” My soul does cry, I want to listen so. But my heart has sheep that it holds dear, refusing to let go.

#blacksheep #belonging #misplaced

Lostling Feb 20

Before Bed

Quiet nights alone
Pen scratching against paper
Finally, day's end

#haiku