You saw me smile
I hid my pain
You heard me laugh
The tears you never saw
You held me tight
You never knew i wanted to run
You watched me sleep
You never saw the nightmares
You heard me sing
The anger you never felt
You thought i was happy
How wrong you were
You never knew

This isn't living
This is you
Pointing a gun in my face
telling me that everything is ok,
You put the bullet in the gun
and
I pulled the trigger
That's the bullet
That
Took away my pain
Running from a blind a man
Lost in the known
I'm afraid to be found
If you can love me,
then you must not know me
I just wanted to dream,
so you poisoned me in my sleep

Dear me,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry that you tried so desperately to fix others when your own hands were shaking.
I'm sorry that I didn't give you enough time to heal,
That I let you heal the wounds of everyone else,
Whilst your own were bleeding.
I'm sorry that there were days when smiling hurt,
But you forced yourself to laugh so that no one had to worry about you.
I'm sorry that you have all of your time and effort to people who don't give the same amount back.
I'm sorry that there were nights when you cried yourself to sleep,
And no one bothered to understand why.
And I'm so so sorry that I didn't love you,
Like you deserved to be loved....!!💔💔

The most painful tears aren’t the ones that fall from your eyes and cover your face,
It’s the ones that fall from your heart and cover your soul....!💔💔💔