i have been doused in gasoline
the moment i fell in love ;
and you took a match to me
the day i fell in love ;
held it over my head ,
teasing teasing teasing ;
now i suffer ashes
oh the burning
burning
burning .

don't know where to go
yet i'm here in this journey
haikus are hard, *****

These are only my feelings
Only.....
They just spew out of me
Can't control them
Can't even filter
Just type them
If they make sense or not
Here they are
And I stink
And I'm sad
And I'm tired
But I'm thirsty
And wondering
And I am happy sometimes
But mostly I'm confused
And you'd think
Seeing them with my own two eyes would help
Yet it only makes me more confused
And I'm okay
I'll always be okay
I'm just waiting to be great

he tells me he is afraid
to touch me
i cant help but think
all he sees is a crime scene
or someone else’s victim
when he looks at my skin

Pen to paper black or blue
I write the words to match the truth
Reading back see what’s written
Story of life stuck in forgotten

Words now gone for me to grill
Spring summer comes the storm
Hang on branches not to brake
Crisp leaves crushed and torn

One by one written in blood
Evil sounds they make me feel
Word by word memories read
Hidden inside the meaning was dread

Verse by verse rhyme to see
Hands that hold the final key
Black Ink stain set in
Flowing freely write to feel the Chi

I can't remember,
I can't understand,
I don't have concept of things,
My mind is leaking.
Don't leave me,please,
Give me a kiss on the cheek,
Hold my hand.
I am sick, sad and tired,
Be patient with me,
Don't think I am giving you a hard time,
I am having a hard time.
Keep me away from crowds and noises,
I hate them.
I may not answer,
I may be abrupt,
Don't take it to heart,
Still talk to me.
Don't lecture or argue,
My mind hurts,
Instead agree.
I am a lonely soul,
Give me a hint of kindness.
14/11/2019