They say they love you.
And they care about you.
And that theyre there for you.

And. Thats supposed to feel good. Its supposed to feel nice.
Be nice.

But honestly.
It just makes me feel nervous.
Uneasy.
Apprehension and suspicion grip me.

They shake me.

And yet at the same time, mostly,
I feel apathy.
Nothing
As if your words were as grains of sand to my beach.
As if they were the folds of some drapery
That i depicted in my sketching class.
Singularly, it is so insignificance to me.
And maybe thats where im going wrong. Looking for beauty and solidity in pebbles and ripples.
It all. Means something. Everything. But.
It all means nothing.
Theyre just words.

And whos to say youre even real.

Wait.
Am i even real.

Not guilty not guilty not guilty.

All three accounts. For naught.

Welp.

How do i momentarily delete people from my life?

Or at least mute them?
Maybe ill just mute myself for a bit.
Delete.
Off grid.

I dont demand justice.

I demand understanding.

I demand

Everyones concerned for my wellbeing.

And i kind of dont give a ****.