I ruined a good day.
My stupid brain caught on fire
and it burned down everything
around me.

The monsters from my nightmares
come out during the day.
When I’m wide awake and suddenly
I’m reliving the day I realized
what was going on.
Then the monsters are
attacking me and I’m crying
in pain just like the first time.

And over time,
My pen stopped bleeding
But my heart didn't

to me,
you are
an art

                              to you,
                              I was
                              a tragedy

There are leads on my chest
to detect any vagaries within
but you are the best heart monitor
circulating in the deep vessels and chambers
checking what pulses and moves in me.
I trust you there
in the darkest parts of me
where life wanders.