Very much too soon,
More than 1,500 miles will separate us.

It wasn't until I was finally saying goodbye
that I was scared to see you leave-
Because I realized that I no longer can protect you,
help you,
serve you,
hold you.
But I only wish the best for you and your new adventures-
wherever they may lead.

Now I have to release you
From my arms
Into the arms of the rest of the world.

The rest of the world only looks scary when I imagine you lost in it.
It can be cruel, harsh, unforgiving...
But I believe you can make it yours.

Very much too soon,
More than 1,500 miles will separate us.

Remember that I'll always be here for you.

Be free.
It's what you've needed all along.

And most importantly, BE YOURSELF.
                          Yourself is who I grew up learning to love.

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Our journey had advanced—
Our feet were almost come
To that odd Fork in Being’s Road—
Eternity—by Term—

Our pace took sudden awe—
Our feet—reluctant—led—
Before—were Cities—but Between—
The Forest of the Dead—

Retreat—was out of Hope—
Behind—a Sealed Route—
Eternity’s White Flag—Before—
And God—at every Gate—

Tell me which building should I go to pray?
For I am a nameless wanderer in search of Him.

It is a human trait to want what is best for
Yourself,
To succeed,
To reach new heights where you almost struggle to breathe,
To make it to the top and watch what you have built thrive,
But you've lost count of how many knives
You've planted in someone else's back,
How many times you have fed off the innocence
Of one's vulnerability
And expose it to catapult your delusions higher,
You keep a tally of how many people you have
Crushed to clear your own path to the pedestal.

But everything crumbles in the end.
You hang precariously over those
Who hungrily wait for you to return
To the bottom of the food chain
Where you belong.
After all,
It is survival of the fittest
And we all want a taste of invincibility.

"Lets be friends" he said
"Its too painful" she said

She fell in love with her best friend
Crazy i know,
But she couldn't help it
He fell for her too
She literally fell for him,
She dropped the wall she built around herself
And he watched her open up
Then left her with her walls down
And her heart on her sleeve.
While building her walls back up
He had the audacity to come back
He begged for her
She being the stubborn in love girl she was.
Believed him
Her walls came tumbling down.
He left again
She fell again
He came back again
She opened up again
He left again
Soon enough she shut herself down
She never caved in
She WAS in love with her "best friend"
Claims she moved on, she did for a little
While he tells her all about his new crush
She remembers everything
She watches his eyes sparkle
And soon enough she built a whole
Barricade around herself.

What if when you aren't here I can't sleep?

And what if I cry?

What if I told you that you are my smile?

And I hope you never lie.

What if you knew that I think about the end constantly?

And if Ill lose my best friend ?

What if I told you how happy you make me?

What would you do then ?

What if we last forever ?

Then again...

What if you leave with my heart in your hand?

I don't want stars to be named after me
or children reading my tales in history.

I just want to leave a mark
somewhere
or maybe on someone
that will
be immortal,
shifting great things
silently.