It happened one day when i was in my room.
I was watching a movie, and this girl was self-harming.
I went back to this video a few times.
She looked happy, the truth is, she probably wasn't.
After getting deeper into videos, movies, and blogs.
It sounded like a good release to my pain i was going through at the time.
So i watched the movie once again and did what she had done.
Then i did it again.
It became an every-day thing i did.
Then i stopped.
Telling myself to stop.
Stop.
I started again.
I reached out to a family member, and he knew.
He asked to take pictures of my wrists.
He said no one would find out.
He told me that it would be our secret.
He grabbed my wrists one time and I pushed him away uncomfortable.
He hid my secret from everyone.
Days, weeks, months, 1 year had passed.
Another year had gone by.
Until it turned into 3 years.
Then i stopped once again, thinking that I would relapse again.
I got to 20 days.
Until it turned into months.
I know I have been talking about this lately.
It has been weighing heavy on my mind.
I found that talking about it helps.
I'm 7 months and 10 days self-harm free.
It is possible to stop, if that's what you want.
If someone you know, or you are struggling with this yourself, please reach out to someone you know.
Please, get help, even if you think you can do it alone.
Because I find it helps to talk to people who know my story.
It doesn't make you weak to reach out.
You deserve the help!