Summer Shellhamer: Favorites

Jan 2018 Summer Shellhamer

Liz

I love you, but loving you has become exhaustive
I love you, but I'm tired of your sick jokes and our senseless fights
I love you, but loving you is taking my mind away from me
I love you, but you made me turn into a person I don't like
I love you, but loving you makes me feel so bad I can't sleep
I love you, but this is killing my soul
I love you, but I need to love myself more
I love you, but goodbye.

#love #bad #this #**** #is #sorry

Nov 2017 Summer Shellhamer

ghost

Nov 2017 Summer Shellhamer

beth fwoah dream boleyn

ghost

you can only
imagine my kiss,

i am a mirage,
the glossy night
blown into
stars,

i am a phantasm
in the autumn frost,

layered like
the night’s soft
cloud,
a stream of
golden leaves
crisp in the quiet
air,

i drown in the
water of the stars

i faint, a ghostly
apparition
you can
hardly
sense in
the dream-like
surrender of
our love,
arousing our
limbs,
kisses like
the flowers of time.

#loving #you

Nov 2017 Summer Shellhamer

excerpt (from a book i'll never write)

Nov 2017 Summer Shellhamer

nobyelse

excerpt (from a book i'll never write)

and then I asked you,
"What's your biggest fear?"

you gave me a quivering sigh,
looked at me straight in the eyes
and said,

"It's that eventually, you will see me
the way I see myself."

#love #sad

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

dying embers

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

sophia sacal

dying embers

Her light was extinguished by the dark
In a sudden implosion of madness,
And all of the stars that once dusted her sky
Now lie as the dying embers of what used to be
Her fiery soul.

#dying #embers #soul #poetry #madness #stars #darkness

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

When You Smile

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

Imran Islam

When You Smile

The moon rises upon your face
And shine falls when you smile
Your silences like conversations
Often you unfold the emotions,
You're happy with your dreams
Though they're many miles away.

The ocean slows down for you
And waves play with your mind
The spring gives you green days
Cause maybe you are loveable,
The moon rises up to your face
Your shine falls when you smile.

The flowers smell pretty in your courtyards
To help you sleep at night
The birdsongs wake you up happily
Every day in the morning,
The moon rises up to your face
Your shine falls when you smile.

The morning takes away your sleepiness
To make you ready for the day
The evening shadow makes you blue
To give you a good sleep night,
The moon rises up to your face
And you shine when you smile.

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

Soulmate

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

KM

Soulmate

Stay by my side
Listen to my troubles

Be there for me as I am for you

Give me a shoulder to cry on
Open arms to rest against
An open heart to shield me
From even my own fears

Fill me with warm reassurance
Of a promising future

Hear unspoken words
And I will listen to the beat of your heart
Though that is what we do
You and I

Listen
Talk
Stay close

My Soulmate

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

Loss

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

KM

Loss

How can I call it a loss
When there was nothing there
Nothing to work with
Nothing of value
You were never a friend
Infuriatingly ignorant
Of the poison you pour
Down everyone's throat

No, this is not a loss
But a liberation
Free from spite that you carry
Free to not worry about what havoc
You will unleash when I am not there
To keep you at bay
Away from my family
Away from my friends

Take your Spite
Take your Jealousy
Your Hated and Envy
And place them on someone else.
And don't fool yourself
Make the decision for me?
No, you just beat me to the punch
Telling me I was not your friend

I don't think we ever were.

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

Bitter

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

KM

Bitter

Maybe all the bitter tears
Will dry with pencil marks
Maybe the brand upon my soul
Will ache less with spoken words
But I'm afraid
That it won't help
Because I know
That it is futile
No word
No song
Not spoken
Nor heard
Can heal my bitter heart

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

Never Forget

Oct 2017 Summer Shellhamer

KM

Never Forget

You walked into my life
Leaving traces of yourself
Making sure I would never forget you

How could I?
You were my rock, my anchor.
You kept me sane

I never thought that I would have to learn
To deal with the rest of the world
Without you here

You weren't my lover
We each had our own happiness
But my dear friend

Why did they steal you away from me?

Who gave them right?
Who told them it was okay?
Who granted permission for them to take you from me?

Maybe I'm selfish
You belonged to not only me
But I can't help but think

Why did you nestle yourself in my soul?
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it feel like I lost a huge part of myself?

I needed you
I still need you

But you're not here
To smile and laugh
To cure the boredom

Chase away my demons
With your kind words
My mental sanity

Don't be afraid
I could never forget you
Like you never forgot me

Only two months. How am I going to survive the rest of my life? I don't know if I can.

Two months ago today my best friend was taken from me. Time doesn't heal wounds. It just gives you more to think about.