Her worth to you is far greater than mine
And perhaps her love for you as well
You tell me I'm yours, this is true
But these thoughts weight down on my mind

Names flash across your screen
I wonder who it could be?
Heart pounding with curiosity
Though I dare not take a peek

Blind my eyes and close my ears
Don't think too hard, it'll bring you to tears
Though I've seen those pictures still online
And I hear those whispers that are said so carefully

Almost as if they are afraid,
Of c r u s h i n g my heart

With words of comfort, he tells me silence
"You are wonderful, You are beautiful "
But the voices that scream tell me otherwise, crying out
Y O U  W I L L  N E V E R  B E  E N O U G H

Even if my heart is riddled with fear
Inferiority to the girl who once stood
I'll try my hardest to live up to her
To receive the same love and the same worth



But still.... it hurts


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I'm tired of pondering, pestering over what's gone
Meaningless small talk, Give another yawn
Distance is feeling, forever unyielding
Just another unsalvagable friendship
I'm better off just leaving

Walk me around the river bend
Lockets in your hand, Tell of your wondrous life,
Oh and the things that cause you strife
I can hear it in your tone of voice, see it in your smile
I use to love to see you, Now it isn't worth my while

Now tell me that you love me, cry that you care
But in the moments I needed you, were you ever really there?
And it breaks my heart to tell you, It hurts my soul to know
But what we had is gone, encased within the winter snow.

My heart keeps beating
Whenever you're around
As if butterfly's keep flutter
I can hear their gentle sounds
Flushing pink and red
Grinning wide from ear to ear
Hiding my face within my sleeve
Peaking out to see you near
Warmth amitting
Hands tightly held
Guiding gentle circles
It's pleasant, It's sweet
Like a syrup dipped candy
You're an overwhelming treat
I'm addicted to your taste
I can't get enough
Kissing you with much haste
A mixture of soft and rough
And I've never felt this way
This feeling that consumes me
Wanting to be near you
To see you, to feel you
I want to be your everything
Though only if you'd be mine
Slow and steady we go
There is no need to rush
But my feelings are certain this time

Such deviated courses
This poetic passion seeks
Driven by forces
From nature to beast
Tempered and nurtured
From unleavened to yeast
Bought and then sold
Judas to Priest

To and fro
The heart we know
Off the beaten path  
With soul in toll
Fro and to
Right and then left
Any which way
More or less...

When we finally find
Our fostered ways
It's always prime time
For another maze...