You're like snow,*
beautiful but *cold.

it's sorta kinda my birthday today.
and i know i should be happier than i am right now.
but truth is, i'm not.
i'm pretty much depressed to be honest.
but not that it matters though.

i really just wanted to thank all you bloggers for giving me pieces of your heart,
the kindness and motivation that makes my world seem like a better place at times.
because if there's one good decision i've made in life,
it would be opening up myself to all of you.

this space has made me feel heard.
this space has made me feel wanted.
this space has made me feel loved.

and just in case you didn't know,
every one of you,
makes a difference,
every time.

When the air
is brightened
by a visit

It welcomes
this new
presence

Abiding in
its own
sweetly deep
silence

This sunlight
has its own
delicate
sound

I keep waking up. In the middle of the night, with your name on my lips, the feeling of your lips on my skin. I keep dreaming of you just to wake up alone, longing for the night just as much as I longed for you. I keep thinking about how I'll tell you about my day when I finally see you, hoping to see how your eyes lighten up when you talk about your day, worshipping your smile and everything you do.

I keep thinking one day you'll finally come back.

I keep forgeting you left without saying goodbye.

There is a silence
That hides under the table
As we speak.

There is a silence
Hidden between every word
We fail to say.

There is a silence
Embroided in the words
We shouldn't say.

There is a silence
That crashes with every blink
As I cry.

There is a final silence
When you get up and leave.