Sometimes I want to care
but then I see you
and finally get that caring got me hear

I want to know the blidness that kept his hands sliding and moving as if two scences were bundled and expelled from the already darkening white shade, pearling infront of his paintngs, There he found the secrets of golden asps and seductive tones
that manipulated Antonys weakness for powerful women.  But now the blank verses  of god and poet live to the imposible idea of finding secrecy and sharing the myth that his scribe would have to live with.  The hardest process of sinking your open thoughts in hot salt.  The painful scars of reliving and redoing to go out into the night hoping it wasnt your last.

you know, i sometimes wish i didn’t learn this language with as much liberty as primary school might allows... given the ageing tend to censor words for the definition of boxed ******* of the turtle; honest it was pointless... in parliament the debate started off with: let’s mime! cube... six handshake proof... boney m... clap clap clap... love... mo farah... panda enclosure of m... only drunk priests attire the power of furthered expression otherwise powerless in status quo for the tsar, the tsarine and familial pyramid extension into the serf of non vox.*

i have to be the rasputin of my day,
the non-plural zeitgeist
that defines a generation...
even if my generation is keen
to hunt nazis that don’t exist
in order to feel morally superior;
as a neo-con said;
it’s pathetic it really is,
they have a life that’s not really lived,
they enter the realm of dialectics without
strong opinions to defend...
so their placebo dialectics is residual of just talk:
talk that might just as well be about politics
as it might just be about weather.

I liked what you said today
the description you so eloquently
spoke of was raw, and honest
about what it's like to be you
I found myself weeping
when I saw the tears welling up
in your soft blue eyes
and, my heart ached for the sadness
you've bravely endured
You said that you were inside a boat
all alone floating on a huge ocean
that there were other people in their boats too
but they were all too busy with their own lives
too busy to notice you
holding a kite in one hand
and, a heavy anchor in the other
holding on so tightly
so that you would not float up into the sky
or, sink to parish at the bottom of a black sea.

Anything
may
seem
a half life
after
such
rush,
so when the rescind is real
it is totally apparent,
nothing more
than a fade
of the full,
just because
the clear of the clarity that was;
the end of our tour,
our tour to source,
the simple end  
of a tour de force.

Its been a while, I've been through dark times but I've found the light
The haters wanna knock me down but I rise and reach new heights
And now I've gotten closer to those I've never spoken to
This time they won't be fake but only true
My life has been so hectic I've been through it all
I've bounced everywhere I've been kicked around like a ball
I'm thankful for meeting her, the girl I didn't think
I would ever talk to, the girl who doesn't need a drink
I'm happy I never killed myself I'm happy I lived this life
And it still doesn't matter how much pain or strife
That I've been put through, it was just a trial for me to overcome
My battle's still going on but I'm at the top I've already won
I realized life was just to good to leave it behind so soon
Ever since I came out the darkness my problems flew away on a hot air balloon
Today I live in happiness, said bye to anger and depression
This is the life that I live and I'm gonna continue this session
I took a dive took a few hits and thought suicide was my only ticket
But I'm thankful for who I am just to be alive because this is Life Today As I Know It

Sometimes,
I find,
The only way I can hold on,
Is to let go