awake at night,
i think of calling you,
talking to you,
sharing the thoughts and dreams
that only come when we're too tired
to make sense anymore,
when the outlandish seems plausible,
and what is seems passe and old.
but i know you're asleep,
dreaming your own dreams,
in a world all your own,
and to tear you from that place would be cruel.
so i sit up, alone in the night,
with only my thoughts for company.

Once again, love knocked at my door.
Someone gorgeous I could adore.
It offered me wings to get up and fly.
I stayed put and gave it no **** try.
Love came this close, lip to lip.
And said she was mine to conquer and to keep.
Love rested her soft hand in mine to hold.
Promised warmth to save me this cold.
Love said she's seen doubt in my mind.
But thought they said love was blind?
Love rained down and washed my hurt.
She said she can stitch my torn heart.
She told me to give her another try.
That ain't no way she'll make me cry.
Shook me and sent volcanic shivers up
my spine.
When she said in a voice so sweet and yet so fine.
That if I let her in,she'd forever be mine.
Sounding honest ,charming and divine.
*There was no way this could have been a lie.
This was my only chance to recover and kiss my suicide plans goodbye.
I was lonely for months high and dry all I did was cut myself and cry.
I've spent months in the dark
searching for someone to be my guide and light me a spark.
All I had was a broken heart and cracked lips with blood that
dripped out from time to time.
I was left alone with nothing but agony and pain
A situation I won't deny drove me insane.
Love came over, dried my tears and helped me get up and put on these wings.
I told her as I let out my gentle sigh
That I might as well give them a try.
Moonlight like rain came down pouring on us both.
The flowers around us giggled and blushed.
She touched my hand and brushed the chaos I had off.
She softly caressed my skin with her fingertips.
And before I knew it she snatched a kiss and washed me from sin.
That was the moment my heart felt another love story was about to begin

The door opens to shine light in.
Waking up but your never here...
Howling memories to break my tears.
A torn paper to make me smile...
A voice to remember.
The empty whisper in my ear...

Shadows sliding down,
Enshrouding the mountainside,
Heralding day's end

I am trying to find a balance,
Among all the chaos.
Each day is a fighting chance,
All about the right stance.
It is not easy to please everyone,
If you are not a people person.
Difficult to get accepted,
Being different, not follow the norm.
I wonder and wonder why?
Being outcast has a price to pay.
Trying to be normal is a humongous task,
For the survival do I have to put up the mask?
I know I don’t want to be alone,
I do feel and I have a soul.
Still there is the fear of unknown,
Makes me sometime give up the hope.
In love or among the peers,
I should do whatever makes me steer.
If you want to stay, stay.
It shouldn’t affect me anyway.
Life will always find its way,
Even among the chaos and storm…

May my words
Be the blanket
That keep you warm