"No more questions?
Let's move on to the next topic"

Mula nang mawala ka,
Sa bawat pagkakataong
Banggitin iyan ng aking mga ****,
Napapatanga ako at itinatanong sa sarili,
"Ganon lang ba kadali yun?"

Sana kasing dali
Ng paglipat ng pahina ng aking libro
Ang paglipat ng puso ko mula sayo, pabalik sakin

Sana kasing dali
Ng pagbura ng marka ng lapis sa kuwaderno
Ang pagbura ng alaala mo sa aking isipan

Sana kasing dali
Ng paglabas pasok ng mga **** sa silid
Ang paglabas pasok mo sa aking mundo

Sana pero hindi

Dahil tila nasa bawat pahina ka ng aking libro
Dahil tila marka ng bolpen ang pilit kong ibinubura
Dahil tila nakalabas ka na ngunit pilit kitang inaanyayahang bumalik
Kahit ilang pagsasanay, pagsusulit, at oral recitations pa
Sana bumalik ka
Pero hindi.

"No more questions?
Let's move on to the next topic"

Paano nga naman kasi ako makakausad
Kung isipan ko'y punong-puno pa rin ng katanungan

Natakot ako noong araw
Na nagising ako
At naramdaman ko ang kabog ng puso ko
Parang iba na ata
Ang sinasabi nito

Hulyo noong nangyari ito
Ngunit Oktubre na nang aminin sa sarili
Ang matagal nang ikinubling damdamin
Dahil nakakatakot

Nakakatakot ang mahulog
Para sa isang taong hindi naka-abang
Upang ika'y saluhin

Nakakatakot malunod
Sa lalim ng iyong mga mata
Na baka hindi na makabalik pa
At maiwang nag-iisa

Nakakatakot sabihin
Ang damdaming itinanggi
Dahil baka di pakinggan
At tuluyan nang iwasan

Natakot ako pero sumugal ako
‘Di na ata kakayanin pang itago ito

Ngunit matapos ang lahat
Tama nga ako

Tama nga ang paulit-ulit na sinabi sa sarili
Hindi na dapat
Bakit nahulog pa
Bakit nalunod pa
Bakit sinabi pa
Sana tinago ko nalang

Mas nakakatakot pala
Nang tuluyang mawala ka

Hindi ko kasi alam
kung saan ako lulugar
Ako na ba talaga
Siya pa rin yata

Sabi mo kasi wala na
Pero sa iyong bawat salita
Nakikita ko siya
Nandiyan pa siya

Natatakot kasi ako
Na mahulog para sayo
Mahulog at hindi masalo
Dahil yakap yakap mo pa siya

Sabi mo kasi napapasaya kita
Ngunit laging may lungkot
Sa iyong mga mata
Namimiss mo lang yata siya

Tama ba'ng ituloy pa ito?
Baka sa dulo'y wala ring tayo?
Baka sa dulo'y ako na lang?
Ayoko nang masaktan

Hangad ko lang naman
Ang iyong kasiyahan
Sinusugal ang aking kabuuan
Laging nagtatapang-tapangan
Pinapairal ang katangahan

Sigurado ka ba sa iyong nararamdaman?
Kasi hindi ko na alam
Kung saan ako lulugar
Baka isang araw
Sa aking pagmulat
Wala ka na at sabay na ulit kayong naglalakbay

Ingatan ko daw ang aking puso
Pero bakit tila
Mas mahalaga sa aking
Buuin ang sa iyo
Habang unti-unting gumuguho
Ang puso ko

Sana pala sinabi ko nalang ang totoo
Noong pwede pa

Sana pala hindi ko nalang inisip
Ang mga negatibong pwedeng mangyari
Kapag sinabi ko ang totoo
Dahil anong malay ko kung kahit sa maliit na tsansa lamang
Mahal mo rin pala ako

Sana pala sinabi ko'ng "dahil gusto pa kitang makausap"
Nang tanungin mo  kung bakit hindi pa 'ko matulog ng mahimbing

Sana pala sinabi ko'ng "dahil mas importante ka"
Nang tanungin mo kung bakit sa dinami-dami ng dapat ko'ng gawin
Ay ang kausapin ka'y di muna udlotin

Sana pala sinabi ko na
Na ang mga tala sa kalangitan
Ay mas nagniningning
Mula nang makilala ka
Na ang pagtaas at paglubog ng araw
Ay mas makulay
Dahil napapanood ito gamit ang iyong mga matang mapupungay

Sana pala sinabi ko na
Na mahal na mahal kita.
Sana pala
Ginawa ko na.
Ngunit huli na nga ata talaga.

Pero
Isang salitang
Pag iyong marinig,
Dapat nang paghandaan
Ang sakit na papalapit

"Maganda naman pero..."
"Mabait ka naman pero..."
"Mahal kita pero..."

Isang hudyat
Ng dapat pang ayusin
Ng kasayangan ng panahon
Ng pagkukulang

Isang hadlang
Sa satispaksyon
Sa pagkakaibigan
Sa iyo at sa akin

"Mahal kita pero may iba na"
"Mahal kita pero hindi ko na kaya"
"Mahal kita pero hindi na tama"

Madaming pero
Madaming dahilan
Di mo lang maamin
Ayaw mo na talaga

Sana sa susunod
Sabihin mo naman

"May iba na pero mahal kita"
"Hindi ko na kaya pero mahal kita"
"Hindi na tama pero mahal kita"

Na tila ba
Nagsasabing
"Ano man ang humadlang, humahadlang, at hahadlang,
Mahal kita,
At iyon lang,
Sapat na,
Para sa ating dalawa"

"It's too good to be true"
Is what people say
When things actually go their way
When happiness envelops their lives
When the skies are filled with rainbows and unicorns

It's sad
How when things
Are going great
It automatically becomes unbelievable

But there's no one to blame
Because truly
When things are going well
Dark clouds are also likely to come

Remember when
We were perfectly happy
In each other's arms?
We laughed our hearts out 24/7?
Fights were composed of
Who gets to put down the phone
After 6 hours of nonstop talking?

I should've known
You were too good to be true.

It’s not everyday
That you meet someone
Who’d change the way
You perceive the world

It’s not everyday
That you meet someone
Who’d very slowly
Break down your walls
Like how a baby slowly learns to crawl

It’s not everyday
That you meet someone
Who’d make your life
Seem so interesting
Talk to you from morning till night
About your past, present, and even your future.

It’s not everyday
That you meet someone
Whom you could never stop talking to
Because even when the world around you is chaotic
You know that in that person
There is only peace and happiness
And love

It’s not everyday
That you meet someone
Who’d leave
As easily as how they came
As if nothing ever happened between you two
As if their absence is nothing to you
And despite all the pain
Despite all the tears
Despite all the months you spent
Thinking of what went wrong
You choose to love
Because what else can you do
When you’ve met the one
And they let go of you?

I like how the universe works;
How each day you wake up
To witness the sun rise
To witness the sun set
But somehow even if you watch it every day
It’ll amaze you in many different ways

I like how the universe works;
How the trees stand still
For hundreds and hundreds of years
Enduring all the pain nature can give
To take in the air you don’t need
In exchange for the air that you breathe

I like how the universe works;
How out of the billions of people
Living on earth
I meet you, to see you,
Continuously rising and falling
Yet you still shine the brightest
And I’m still amazed at everything you are

I like how the universe works;
How out of the billions of people
Living on earth
I meet you, to take in all my hurt
And all my tears
As you give me the purpose of my life
To love you with all my heart, soul, and body

I like how the universe works;
How you can be my sun
How you can be my tree
How you can be
The only one for me
How I can be the most imperfect human
But still,
You choose to love me

I don’t know but
I always find you

I always find you
When I’m thinking
About how to design my nails
Once the holidays start

I always find you
When I’m baking
My favorite cookie,
Thinking of the one you made for me
And how it still wins
The best cookie award

I always find you
When I watch my favorite show
And how I used to watch it with you

I always find you
When I look at my sister
Because you loved her
Like how I do

I always find you
When I’m left with my thoughts
Thinking how wonderful it is
To have met someone like you
That even if we’re far apart
Even if we’ve said our goodbyes
Even if you’ve moved on with your life
In my heart,
I will always find you

I hate dreams
All the bad ones
But especially the good ones
The good ones wherein you and I,
You and I,
Are happy.

I hate how those dreams
Make me feel
Like there’s a chance
Between you and I,
When really,
There’s just none.

I hate how in those dreams
I can laugh my heart out
I can say how much I love you
And you’d be saying it back

Because after that one great adventure
With you,
I wake up
And it’s just me
And my empty inbox
That used to be filled with the surge of your words

Another regular day of trying
Trying and trying and trying
To finally say
That I’ve moved on;
That I’m over it

Early in the morning
But instead of opening my eyes
I force them shut,
Turn off the world
Because maybe,
Just maybe,
I could dream again
And there I would find,
You and I

It's sad
How we ended up like this
Settling
On the fact
That we can never be just friends
But we can never be more than that

It's sad
How middle ground does not exist
Hoping
That there's more to this
Though we both know
It's all there is

It's not
That we don't love each other
But it's because of that love
That we seek peace
Peace in the fact
That this is our resolution
Yet my heart
Wasn't resolved

Your hands didn't fit mine perfectly;
My arms were a little too long compared to yours.
That when we walked,
Hand in hand,
Someone always had
To reach out for the other

My palms were always sweaty;
At any time of the day.
That before we walked,
Hand in hand,
I always had to wipe
The sweat off my palm

Yet we always walked,
Hand in hand.
Despite how uncomfortable it is;
We walked,
Stood,
And sat,
Hand in hand.

It's not like us, holding hands, was any different
From us, being together.
You come from your own world,
I come from mine.
We like different things.
Our personalities are always crashing.

But somehow,
Despite all the signs that tell us
We're not supposed to be
Our souls held each other
Hand in hand