Turbulence in my mind
Peace I cannot find
Thoughts I cannot park
Silence screams in the dark

Demented shadow rejoices
Deafening loud noises
Exhausting persistent voices
Debating impossible choices

Don't need anyone to blame
Just Need to numb my brain
Does anyone share this pain?
Does anyone feel the same?

I'm sitting here to write these words
to say what's on my mind;
To promise you I'm changing plans,
to walk a different line.

I know I've lived so deep in sin,
as down life's road I trod;
I failed so bad in many ways
while running from my God!

It's never worked, the way I've lived,
my life from day to day;
The simple truth, I'm still amazed
you never walked away!

You've stood by me, no matter what,
the pain at times so bad;
You never once resented me
or life we should've had!

You've taught me more, though miles apart,
of what true love's about;
You broke the binds around my heart
with love to never doubt!

You're anchored firm, with roots so deep,
you've always stood so fast;
You've grounded me with Godly love,
and shown your love to last!

So now you see you're everything,
my Angel from above;
A special gift God sent to me
all packaged in your love!

The leaves were just at the very peak of their color
and the air was full of change
Seasons have come and gone
and still I cannot forget his name
Sometimes we have to let go
of those godawful memories
In order for our heart
to forget the pain
Darkness will try to ride up on
its darkened horse from behind
Some days I just ride it out
Other days I beat it back down
All that animosity makes us go blind
I have to remind myself that I am not back there
I have to remind myself to just breathe