Axrchx

Axrchx Oct 2024

How blue the iris grew.
How grey the clouds gathered.
As oak leaves wandered in the wind,
melancholia rushed through my vein.

How high the crows soar.
How loud the crickets chirped.
As windows slammed in the wind,
melancholia rushed through my vein.

How loftily the sky roars.
How quickly the gale moves.
As the willow whirled in the wind,
melancholia rushed through my vein.

How the birds hurry home.
How the plants await the rain.
As my eyes ambled around them,
melancholia rushed through my vein.

How the lightning flashed
and how the thunder crashed.
As i walk through my pale garden,
melancholia rushed through my vein.

How heavy my heart.
How dreary the scenery.
As the gods wept upon me,
melancholia rushed through my vein.

How it eclipse my tears.
How wholly it devoured me.
As i look upon my ephemeral life,
melancholia rushed through my vein.

when the weather match your mood <3

#rain #depression

Axrchx Oct 2024

my love

Can we lay still and idle,
can we lay as close as possible.
Can our hands be intertwined
and our minds synchronized.
Do nothing, say nothing.
I think it just might cure me.
The clock stopped ticking
and the wind stopped blowing.
As you tighten your grip
i let myself slip,
slip into sleep.
Where i dream about
you and me,
taciturn and tranquil.

#love

Axrchx Oct 2024

My perfect blue

The red rose he gave,
still inside my favorite book.
Frozen in time, just like me.
The marathons he runs inside my mind,
leaving me battered and bruised.
Bruises that I'll carry for an eternity, undefined.

i used to wince at the thought of him with another soul
now i convince myself, this is how its suppose to be
so that i don't loose control.

If only the time would do its trick. Like
how it turns tragedies into distant memories,
how it alters warm springs into icy autumns,
and how often it made empires rise and fall.
It can easily make blemishes fade.
Still, my wound remains unhealed.

#time #love #wound

Axrchx Oct 2024

All about you.

YOU weaponized my desire for warmth.
Turning me into a slave.
Drowning my will to live.

YOU play puppeteer, while I play a puppet.
Turning my world ashen.
Changing my anger into compassion.

What a menace YOU are
for finding pleasure
in my despair.

No shame for my ardent love. Still,
No second will be spend
to reminisce about YOU.

#rage #hate #manipulation #heartbreak

Axrchx Oct 2024

Underwater at midnight

A soaked sunken pillow
A floating empty head
And the usual sleepless night
Another unproductive day behind.
An overreacting heart
An uncontrollable mind
And a pair of guilty eyes.
All i own at this moment.

All those times i didn't raise my hand
And the times the words never came out.
All those times i was tested in life
And how the mind went blank every time.
All the nerves around my eyes
And all the tears it let go.
All parts of me burning
All for that unreachable peace.

A lot of regret filled scenarios
Along with a head full of fictional people
And a whole lot of futile thoughts.
All taking me a step away from
A silent and content mind frame.
Although, in spite of all this
All i yearn for is
A dream i wont regret in the morning.

#crying #sleep #regret #dream

Axrchx Oct 2024

...

You should know,
i could see right through your
web of lies.

#breakup #lies #haiku

Axrchx Oct 2024

Moving on...

Why were you the one that left?
'All is said and done', you said.

The fruitless love that confined me
Should've let go.
Should've ran off.

The heart that drenched
from the tears i held back
still searching...
for your mellow heart.

Naive me, blinded.
Not by love, but by deceit.

Pawn for your game.
Born for this same,
ruthless heartbreak.

The mess that I'm
wouldn't have been
if you didn't claim
that I'm to blame.

#heartbreak #love #toxic #relationship #stuck #sad