Pill after pill and still the void lingers
Gripping my wrists begging to escape reality.
Ocean of velvet is where the high takes me.
Artificial comfort and happiness,
why can't you last forever?
Soon I'll forget what solid ground feels like,
and I'll lose myself to you again.

these lines they are so simple
nice and short
long and deep
dark and light
leave scars
but oh so faint
speaks volumes
but kept in silence
these lines they are so nice
these lines why do you scowl at them?
I don't understand. You don't want me here?
I can go. back to the closet with the lights on.
I prefer that to your world of darkness.
ah yes I'm back.
how I love these lines.
why do you want me to stop? You want me here, but how?
this is how I'm here
my body see touch it, hug me, I can smile for you
if you want
but wait, I'm sorry. these lines I can't go. I can't. I'm here I promise, I can act brother, I promise don't cry. stop yelling mom. dad can I stop throwing up yet? can I stop chugging water yet, dad? I'm sorry. I can pretend. Please don't cry. I'm sorry. I'll lie. I'll smile. I'll interpret. I'll respond. I'm sorry, sister I'm sorry. This isn't your fault I promise. Don't feel that way love. It's okay. I'll lie. These lines they can tell my story when my body is in a grave. can I stop yet dad? mom please, brother don't cry, sister it's okay.
me.me.me
would you live for them, even if you couldn't?

I survived.