Autumn

Oct 2014

Just Melz

She cries late
                  every night
     Turns off all the
                           lights
         Sits in bed
bawls
             her eyes out
      in the dark
Cutting out pieces
      of her heart
No one can see
                          the scars
           of her sewing
back up her chest
       Soon she will be
             an empty shell
        Hopefully
                    putting her soul to rest
If her heart
                    is no longer there
It can't get broken,
              right?
If no one can see
                          the tears
Then she never cried,
                     right?

#broken #sad #life #lonely #heart #depressed #tears #crying #soul #toomuchtohandle

Oct 2014

nominal

Bruised Bones

Pill after pill and still the void lingers
Gripping my wrists begging to escape reality.
Ocean of velvet is where the high takes me.
Artificial comfort and happiness,
why can't you last forever?
Soon I'll forget what solid ground feels like,
and I'll lose myself to you again.

#heartbreak #sad #depression #pain #drugs #abuse #loss #hurt #you

Autumn Oct 2014

FLicCKerS FrOm ThE "pAsT"

these lines they are so simple
nice and short
long and deep
dark and light
leave scars
but oh so faint
speaks volumes
but kept in silence
these lines they are so nice
these lines why do you scowl at them?
I don't understand. You don't want me here?
I can go. back to the closet with the lights on.
I prefer that to your world of darkness.
ah yes I'm back.
how I love these lines.
why do you want me to stop? You want me here, but how?
this is how I'm here
my body see touch it, hug me, I can smile for you
if you want
but wait, I'm sorry. these lines I can't go. I can't. I'm here I promise, I can act brother, I promise don't cry. stop yelling mom. dad can I stop throwing up yet? can I stop chugging water yet, dad? I'm sorry. I can pretend. Please don't cry. I'm sorry. I'll lie. I'll smile. I'll interpret. I'll respond. I'm sorry, sister I'm sorry. This isn't your fault I promise. Don't feel that way love. It's okay. I'll lie. These lines they can tell my story when my body is in a grave. can I stop yet dad? mom please, brother don't cry, sister it's okay.
me.me.me
would you live for them, even if you couldn't?

the last question is worded odd, I hope the meaning is portrayed correctly. interpretations greatly appreciated

Oct 2014

1487

Oct 23rd

I survived.

today would've made 2 years. we didn't make it here last year, why would we now?

Autumn Oct 2014

When a poem blows you away

And ****.
You read these poems one after another and some, most they seem to blend all together.
But ****.
You keep reading and then there's a WOW and you remember why you joined hp, in the first place.
before the hash tags,
and ****.
that poem was wow, and hey I remember the passion, the free that was once there.
and ****.
thank you.
for reminding me the passion is still in there!
cause ****.
let the passion live on my friend.
and ****.
THRIVE for ***** sake
your already there my friend

quite obviously read a fantastic poem, thank ya :)