Lost on some horizon
juggling the everyday
I found a path, a road
winding to the distance
the separation of heart
and mind coming together
with each footstep I made.

pain
In you i found solace
In you i found comfort
In you i found everything i knew

pain
I have known you the longest
I have lived with you always

pain
I have known you since i was a young girl
before the world stripped me of my innocence
When i thought everything was pure.

pain
I have been engulfed in your maze,
Years and years of trying to escape,
But to my dismay i keep failing.

pain
You are me and i am you ,
The day i met you
everything turned so blue.

pain
I struggle to tear you away,
you keep chasing my happiness away.

pain
You came at my darkest hour,
but now ,
Even at my brightest you remain.


// 26 - 9 - 15

I miss you but only in secret,
as a whisper,
it lives darkly within me.

It can't be strong,
only a quiet tide.

It can't be known,
because you don't belong to me.

Lust is craving
The flesh of another
Lust is desiring
a late night lover

Lust is grinding and biting
And soaking covers
Lust Is moaning and begging
For the moon never to go under

Lust is powerful,
It's the mortals kryptonite
Lust has driven the best of us to madness
All over the experience of one night

Lust is desire,
expressed through the body
Lust is wanton sin that the devil
Wouldn't relish in
Lust is... this night

proficiency is key
it is knowing that while we
merely live one lonely life
it should at least be lived with glee
so to say that you must leave
is to say that you must breathe
without the heavy burden
that society begs and pleads
for you to stay in place for it
and conform to its deadly needs
you must take the longer road
if you are willing to succeed

I welcome death as one would welcome the morning sun.
Sadness fills my heart where joy once took its place.
Life is for dying and dying alone.
Living is a punishment in its entirety .