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 Mar 2015 Anonymistress
Charlie
I kicked the edge
of the coffee table
with the top of
my small toe.
And then I thought of you.

I dropped that glass
But nearly caught it
with my then glass
Shard filled hand.
And then I thought of you.

Knicked the edge of
my Razer against the
Contour of my face
while my blood filled
the rest of the mirror.  
And then I thought of you.

But when I nearly
cut myself in half
with that old ax
And dead tree,
I didn't think of you.

You don't want me dead,
Just alive enough to feel the pain,
because when you're dead you can't
feel dead,
when you're living
Sometimes it's all you can feel.
You took a lot of things from me.
My dignity,
My hope,
My self respect,
My innocence,
But I think the biggest thing you took from me
was my feeling of safety.
I haven't felt safe since that day.
I'm so afraid these days.
I've been thinking about feeling safe a lot lately, as I'm sure my poems reflect.
I know of a place,
where it only rains ash.
The sun doesn't shine,
it was swallowed en masse.
By an ominous void,
that's now stifled the grass.
I'm loathe to return,
but I'll lead you if asked.

We'll journey on over,
to death's little home.
Where graves fill the fields,
in neat little rows.
Not a songbird in sight,
just cackling crows.
Nor will flowers you see,
where the bone roses grow.
 Mar 2015 Anonymistress
lX0st
I've waited countless nights
For the sun to rise
And finally found the light
When I searched in your eyes.

Your love shone so bright
It sent my soul awry
And though day turns to night
I've never felt so alive.
I've never loved a sunset so much.
please don't forget to think of me.
remember me when you feel the sunlight
reach your hair and grow warm, when
it hits your face and you're taken
aback and blinded as it pours steadily
into your eyes. don't look into the
sun like I did. it feels warm
and inviting on your skin, but if
you let it pour into you for
a moment it will take years until
you can see. the sun in the
end is nothing more than hot gas
burning in the distance. don't close your
eyes to it either, don't avoid it,
but cast your eyes down as it
climbs high over you. and watch from
it's setting to rising how the air
changes and it grows cool, cool but
you are not alone. you are no
longer alone as you allow your eyes
to raise and the moon reflects a
lighter glow you can understand, and scattered
about it are kaleidoscope cousins of the
sun that sought to burn. you remember
me when you realize these acts of
separation are safer than the sun direct.
This is the opposite of what I wanted to write, I actually think it ended up a little eerie if you think about it.
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