HeyitsAngel

HeyitsAngel May 2020

Society at times is absolutely disgusting
I as a young women
Can't walk out wearing a crop top and jeans
Without having men look at me in a way
That is completely unnecessary
It should not matter what a woman wears
No man should look at her in a profound way
She is more than just a body
She is no object
She is beautiful and deserves to be respected
It's disgusting to have men make comments
About a young women wearing a semi crop top
I should be able to wear what I want
Without men giving me negative attention
Society I swear
We as people have lost all sense of
Chivalry
It is disgusting
To see how men view women
She is a person
Who deserves respect
I am more than just a body
I am a person
Who has feelings
And deserves love and respect
Chivalry is dead

HeyitsAngel May 2020

I don't know

I sit here
Wondering
Why can't I feel anything
Why do I feel so afraid
Like I can't trust anyone
I wish we could see the colors of someone
Right away
Like do they just want to take advantage of me
I wish I knew
Like that's what happens
When your heart gets messed with so much
I don't know
I give up honestly
I am sick of trying to figure out who is good
And who is bad
I think being alone is great sometimes
Because even while trying to read people
I will still be happy
Because I will know
That even in my loneliness
I don't need to rely on others for my happiness
Writing is my focus
Family is my focus
Meeting other writers is my focus
Getting into a good college
But I think from now on
My writing will have how I feel
So whoever reads my work will know
I am telling a story
Because it's okay
To not know
And at this point in my life
I don't know
I don't care to know
Seeking happiness within writing

#idontknow

HeyitsAngel Apr 2020

You never cared anyways

You defiantly broke my heart
If I am being honest
You broke me
Yep you really did
I stayed up waiting by the phone for all your calls
You never called
Little to know you were doing things behind my back
I was so naive not to say anything
Move on go ahead
Because its so easy for you
You not being the broken one
Congratulations you made it on the list
The list of guys I thought loved me
And told me all the beautiful things
To take advantage of my kind heart
You never valued me
So have fun
Have a good life
I feel no need to text you
To express to you how badly you broke my heart
Because guess what
If you didn't care during our relationship about how I felt
You for sure wouldn't give a **** now
So thank you
For the next guy I will need to be super healed
You argued with my friend when he said you were gonna cheat and break my heart
You called it a stereotype
Well clearly it wasn't
You told me you would never break my heart
You promised but no you did
You told me to trust you
Stupid me to believe that
You told me you never talked to your exes
You told me they meant nothing
You brought them up way too much
Talked about their beauty
I guess I wasn't good enough
I will come back a better women
Stronger
So thank you
I was the best thing you ever had
Put so much effort
But no you can move on like nothing
Why?
Because I never hurt you!
Even when you broke my heart at many times
But no I have to sit here in pain
The pain you caused
I lost trust for anyone
But your trust stayed the same
You are a monster
In disguise as a prince
To lure the innocent
Only to break them

#youbrokeme #breakup #sterotype #hurt

HeyitsAngel Apr 2020

"I am Okay"

She lays in her bed
Letting thoughts roam her mind
She is thinking
What can I do to be enough
Enough for everyone
Enough to be loved so deeply and adored
What can I do to not be just the average girl
She wants to be something more
She is shy
She seeks respect and love
Her mind is determined and focused
She likes to know what makes her different
Is there a difference
Am I good enough she asks
If so how
How am I worthy
She sits and waits
As her phone lights up
She needs to be alone
Are you okay someone asked
Yeah just tired she said
Good night
She didn't go to bed
She laid there thinking
She stayed up really late
Woke up
Took a shower
Thoughts wondering
I am okay
I'm just tired

#tired #worth

HeyitsAngel Apr 2020

The Advice My Best Friend Left Me

My best friend and I have stuck together through everything
Each break up
Each hard time
Each insecure moment
Each happy moment
Girls breaking his heart
Guys breaking mine
Each night when our minds are overthinking
And it becomes too much
We know we can contact each other
Each time we fall in love with someone we always ask for advice
It's always I hope they love you
We have always supported each other
The advice my best friend left me was...
You are worthy
Guys don't understand how great you are
My best friend has always reminded me of my worth
My best friend has always valued our friendship
Just when I think I am not worth it
My best friend brings me back
You have an amazing heart
That's what my best friend tells me
There is a movie my best friend had me watch
It reminded me a lot about our lives in a way
I think one of my favorite memories with my best friend was
That car ride on the way to our friend's house
And we vibed to music and made fun of street names
Get yourself a best friend like mine
That reminds you of your worth
That would do anything for you
And support you
Thank you to my best friend
For being the shoulder I can cry on all last year
For supporting the decisions I made even though they were not great
For being there to catch me even when you warned me
This one is for you

#my #best #friend #support #thank #you

HeyitsAngel Apr 2020

The girl that wishes she was good enough

Young girl sits quietly in her room
Light coming from your vinyl records on her wall
She sits and deals with overthinking
She wishes she was good enough
Weight has always been an issue for her
People complaining about how her weight is
Her family thinks she is beautiful
She may not be the prettiest
She may not be the smartest
She loves people
She wants value
She pours her heart into people that don't deserve her
Why
Because she has a big heart
People take advantage of her in so many ways
Her mother has cried wishing people would stop hurting her
She has been heart broken so many time
And always she says
I wish that I was good enough
I wish I was shorter
She wishes she was more in shape
But shes working on that
She wishes someone would say wow thats wifey material
But actually mean it
She wishes someone would look at her and be like wow
She is gorgeous not only her appearance
But her heart
She ends her night with these words
I wish I was good enough

#goodenough #overthinking #new #poet

HeyitsAngel Mar 2020

The Young Teenage Girl

Young teenage girl
She thinks she is in love at age 17
She is very kind
Heart like gold
Innocent thinking no boy can ever hurt her
She was wrong
She went through something she thought she can never get out of
She was scared
This boy broke the way she viewed herself
Because to him she was nothing
She was only pleasing to the eye
But not to be in love with emotionally
She now lives with the thoughts of how awful he was
He won't ever think about how he broke her
With his comments
With his actions
She cried in her room for hours
Afraid of everything
Thinking all men viewed her as nothing
But pleasing to the eye
She was just trying to be happy
If he was so unhappy with himself
Or if he knew he wasn't suitable for a girl like her
Why did he date her
Why did he not express to her his intentions in the first place
But no instead he decided to date a happy
Loving
Innocent women
Only to break her
You didn't deserve her
No apology can fix her
You did what you did
Now leave her alone
You are just upset she didn't feed into what you wanted
You made it hard for her to even let another man love her
But no you can go move on with your love life like normal
Because you don't live with any pain
Because she wasn't a hurtful person
But she met someone
A man that was willing to be patient with her
Knowing what she went through
He spent time loving her
Even if she wasn't very comfortable even with a hug
But no he loved her
She got what she deserved all along
A loving man
That is devoted to her
That will give her the entire world if he could
That would make sure she would never go through any pain
Ever again...

#young #teenage #girl #pain #love #fakelove #hero #boyfriend #boythatbrokeher