Caitlin

Caitlin Feb 2019

Lyrics

Every song brings an image of you into my thoughts.
Good and bad, even some missing memories.
A foggy feeling knowing that you were there.
Knowing I was safe I let myself go.
But now I hear those songs and I yearn for those absent moments.

Caitlin Feb 2019

Silent

You dismissed me immediately.
You didn’t even bother to look me in the eye.
I stood there wondering how you decided so fast.

You had looked so kind,
I thought maybe this one is different.
I decided to be brave, to cross that line.
Within seconds you made me regret it.

I wasn’t ready.
Now it will take even longer.
I fill my mind with reasons to make up for your silent rejection.

Caitlin Feb 2019

Games

I waited for you to say those words, to finally admit you cared.
By the time you said them out loud, I was already ensnared.
To someone new, just as broken as you.

Do I truly yearn to hear that phrase,
Or are you all just a game I play?
An intricate way to feel desired,once I have you I’m no longer inspired.

#relationships #games #broken #giveup

Caitlin Feb 2019

Mirage

You are so close

I can see you on the horizon

You are my salvation

The closer I get

The more I realize

When I touch you

You’ll disappear

You were never really there

#mirage #imagination #reliance #ghost

Caitlin Feb 2019

Colourblind

I'm told I don't see your true colors, I see you through rose coloured glasses.
I try to convince them that they don’t know the person I have grown to love.
The only person I’m fooling is myself.

#blind #good #bad #damaging #sides

Caitlin Jan 2019

Fantasies and Nightmares

I cannot escape you,
even in my dreams.
Sometimes they are fantasies,
showing how I wish we were.
Sometimes they are nightmares,
reminding me what we really are.
Both torment me.

I realize my last two have both started with I cannot, but to be honest I do feel helpless when it comes to this “muse”

#stuck #dreams #nightmares #wishes #fantasies #torment

Caitlin Jan 2019

Untitled

I cannot leave you
You are already broken
I will give up pieces of me
To try and make you whole