AllAtOnce

AllAtOnce Nov 2014

what we love:
those things change/ like hail to snow and snow to rain/we don't realize it now/but we will love it more than before/love the most/love the worst/become folklore

#love #poetry

AllAtOnce Nov 2014

perfectly broken

we wrote our own story
but it got away from us
breaking out and breaking down
broken love and broken hearts
what we tried to fix we just tore apart
we tried too much and tried too hard
we didn't need fixing, baby, because broken is what worked
when we tried to love we just got hurt
we fell apart and fell back together
some loves are not meant to be
but that doesn't mean they aren't broken perfectly
sometimes we don't need to love out loud
or stop and wonder "how?"
that would just make things worse
because, baby, this love is cursed
smeared lipstick and pretty lies
stars are glowing in your eyes
we don't need light to see
because shots fired in daylight always bleed
bring me life or bring me death
i'm ready for risk and i'm short on breath
we don't need perfect and we don't need rebirth
because, baby, this love is cursed
we don't need "i love you" and we don't need gifts
that's for amateurs who still believe in fairy tales and rosy lips
there's no room for hellos or goodbyes
just locked doors and pretty eyes
pretty eyes
locked doors
pretty lies
watch me run and watch me fall
catch me quick and hold me tall
don't worry about life or forever
just bring me close and whisper: "we can be together"
you said you loved me
and i said really
we don't need perfect and we don't need rebirth
because, baby, this love is cursed

just pieces of a song i hated so i fixed it kinda

#love #lies #forbidden #blue #really #cursed

AllAtOnce Nov 2014

Cursed

The type of boy I want to meet
Is one who's tall with pretty eyes
That drives me crazy-good and bad
Who knows he won't love me all the time
I want someone who can get my sense of humor
And can roll his eyes and play along
Who can play an instrument
And maybe even write a song
But I don't want to be his princess
I want to be able to swear at him a lot
And he can yell right back
Knowing it's all in love
He could tell when I'm not okay
And I could read him like a book
But we would know when to shut up
And talk with just a look
I don't want to think about forever
I just want him to hold me right then
Without thinking about the end
Knowing he is risking pain
He would know when it's time to be cute
When I just need him there
And also when I need to hit someone
And offer up his food to share
I want someone who would keep me warm all night
A Disney movie on the tv
But talking through the whole thing
About books we want to read
Our relationship would be dysfunctional
And that would be okay (could be worse)
No love is meant to be
But some are definitely cursed

I don't believe in fairy tales, but some loves are definitely cursed. For Ember Evanescent's challenge.

#love #challenge

AllAtOnce Nov 2014

What always happens?

What happened to us
What happened to this
I'm looking back to see if it really happened
Just to find out that it did
Late night texting is the best
Because you're never like that awake
And I know it will be forever
Until I see that again
This always happens when we see each other
Ya know?
Maybe that's our problem
Or maybe that's just our M. O.
I think I stayed up too late
And got up too early
I'm going to change out of your shirt now
Before everyone starts to worry

"People like you always want back
The love they gave away
People like me wanna believe you
When you say you've changed"

#night #late #rqt

AllAtOnce Oct 2014

Drowning at Sea

I always like people
Who are not right for me
They see me as clingy
And uppity property (of the wayward sea)
So they cast me overboard
(Watch me drown)
Unless I get them first (last)
Then I'm just a ghost from their past
Scars in a row: one. two. three?
God help me.

#sea #ghosts #overboard

AllAtOnce Oct 2014

Well Do You?

Do you notice the sparkle in my eyes?
When I hear that song I still sometimes cry
Do you remember my favorite color or favorite food?
Because when I see plaid I still think of you
Does that song still make you think of us?
Because for me it still really does
Do you remember the feeling that night we cuddled on the couch?
Or when you sang to me off key and loud
Do you know you drank all my apple juice the other day?
I think I've run out of things to say...

Sometimes I wonder. Other times I don't.

#blue #songs #remembering #oldlove

AllAtOnce Oct 2014

*Falling Hearts and Falling Rain*

We took a picture that day
And I saw something in your eyes
All your love and all your fears
Looking back and now I can see
We were flying, flying, flying like a plane
Baby, back when we were sane
Now we're falling, falling, falling
Standing out in the rain-we were going insane
Waiting at your doorstep and ignoring the pain
We're falling apart with the rain

You were my rainstorm and my love story
Breaking down and then down pouring
Thrashing winds right through my worries
Cold hearts making heart strings blurry
Remember when you said "I love you"
Remember when I loved you back
I tried so hard and you broke me
The monsters came up from the sea
Now I'm falling and I can't breathe
I'm drowning, drowning, drowning under the sea

My lipstick on your cheek
I said goodbye and now you hate me
The rain washed away all our tears
But up grew pain and all our fears
Maybe we need to let this go
Maybe, baby, but I don't know

You were my rainstorm and my love story
Breaking down and then down pouring
Thrashing winds right through my worries
Cold hearts making heart strings blurry
Remember when you said "I love you"
Remember when I loved you back
I tried so hard and you broke me
The monsters came up from the sea
Now I'm falling and I can't breathe
I'm drowning, drowning, drowning under the sea

The rain came down and we went up
Setting fire to all we love
Smoke rising so far above
Reaching for something we know not of
Breathing toxins and breaking up
I still love you but it's too much
Calm down babe it's not about love
Start listening and start living
But don't keep forcing me to believe
Because all that does is make me want to leave

I tried so hard and you broke me
The monsters came up from the sea
Now I'm falling and I can't breathe
I'm drowning, drowning, drowning
Now I'm falling and I can't breathe
(Drowning, drowning, drowning)
Under the sea

Again it's long sorry...

#love #rain #sea #monsters