i close my eyes and count to ten
how is it already that time again?
i set my clock for 6 am
it's time for another year
  a year of tears and fights
a year of black and white
where grey isn't even an option
on a multiple choice question
so many things are the same
but if they're different who's to blame
same teachers and same kids
with the same jokes and the same wit
i close my eyes but open them
maybe i'll wake up at 6:10

it's 12:58
again
just like any other night
lying awake
because the night before
i dreamed of you
again
and then never heard from you
what am I in for?
what's my offense?
i'm so sick of this
who wrote the rules to this game
again?
well I don't want to play
but if I do I want to win

there is no way
my eyes will flutter closed tonight
there's too much to think about
too much everything
because what the next day brings
is always scarier than the one before
but some
are scarier than others
because we're all afraid of the unknown
everything could change
or even worse
everything could stay the same
fear.
-always fear-
when it comes to these things.

i can see the dark outside
but, trust me, it's darker in this room
every feeling hovering like a dark cloud
and i pray for sweet sleep soon
the stars outside sparkle with pure insanity
because the sane are always dimmer
i'll take a sharpie and draw stars
everywhere they don't belong-even on my skin
because they say i can't
and i'm a poor reincarnation of a rebel
but even so i'm tired of reaching for the best
and rising to "my own potential"
i want to be like the stars
where everyone notices their collective light
one just as beautiful as the next
all in the sky, ready to take flight
i want to be insane
and make my own mistakes
because even stars can get burnt out
and pave their own fate
if i'm going to go out
it will be like a star
twinkling one minute but not the next
and no one noticing at all
but people make wishes on stars
and what would ever wish for me
the sky makes everything overwhelming
and i'm on the brink of insanity
the stars are going insane
and i'm simply burning out
stars and hearts, all the same
and no one hears the shouts

you know,
people are kind of
like stars,
and not because of
the way that they
glow radioactive,
grant fairytale wishes,
or shoot across the sky,
but because of the
way that they
explode
into dust,
inhaling the broken remnants
into their black holes,
just like you drew my shattered pieces
into yours.

Falling love
Sharing hearts
Far too similar
For my taste
Forbidden fruit
Taken away
What if pieces
Fit anyway
It doesn't matter
Everything's lost
But how far will this go
What does he cost
Breaking ties
Cutting strings
Burning bridges
Muffled screams

hush my dear
don't you cry
take a deep breath
everything will be alright
i'd break my heart for what breaks yours
i'd build a wall up around it
with tall, stone walls and twice locked doors

let me wrap my arms around you
come close-closer-close
push the hair out of your eyes
please, honey, please don't cry
have a little faith
is that what you want me to say?

i know that you're broken and i know that you're scarred
but i think you can be whole again
i think that you're strong
and when everything comes tumbling down
just replay this broken boy love song
when you feel broken and when you feel scarred
look in the mirror and tell yourself that you're strong
so when everything you love is still at home
listen to the broken boy love song

i hear that you're alone
i hear you're going insane
music turned all the way up
hoping someone is calling your name
but you know i'd break my heart for what broke yours
i'd build a wall up around it
with tall, stone walls and twice locked doors

i know that you're broken and i know that you're scarred
but i think you can be whole again
i think that you're strong
and when everything comes tumbling down
just replay this broken boy love song
when you feel broken and when you feel scarred
look in the mirror and tell yourself that you're strong
so when everything you love is still at home
listen to the broken boy love song

break my heart for what breaks yours
i don't expect bright eyes or open doors
breaking my heart for what broke yours
maybe we both feel alone in the world
break my heart for what breaks yours
stone walls and twice locked doors

i wake up early
wondering
if I dreamed of you
because I know you were dreaming of me too
*you always do

it's just me with this guitar
that I can't play
wondering where you are
i've lost all hope
of changing minds
with the sound
of breaking ties
there's nothing left
to hold to now
besides old pictures
because you're going now
with symphonies
you're going out
followed by raindrops
you couldn't hear my shouts
just don't forget
about me when
you go away
i know you may want to
but promise me anyway