I'd put a bullet in my head if I didn't have
A trigger for a spine
Please **** me
Why is the pain not gone
Why do I still feel like
all the goodness in my life
When you pulled the knife from his flesh
And twisted it into my back
I saved you from him.
He saved you from me.
Now your seeing him again
So I wasted 2 years of my life teaching you to love yourself, only so you'd **** off and love someone else
God I'll take no more
For heavens sake
I cant take no more
You do it for fun
Just brag and then run
I know your just his *****
So have your fun
I'll stroke this gun
And eagerly await
I'm getting really drained. Why can't you get out of my life. I don't want to hurt any more
I don't want to feel like this why can't you get out of my head please make it stop
To and fro
Back and forwards.
Side to side
Up then so far down
I'm not worth being around
Cuttin and I ain't even a little ******
A grin on my face saying watch this
Heading to the beach to blow my brains away
Grey matter scattered in the sand
As surf crashes I'll faid away
I sat down to write about how you made me feel, Funny, I thought something indescribeable would be easy to explain
For the longest time I was In a dark place. With weights of lead bound around my heart. The inside of my skull became walls that I was forced to scream at my flesh was a barrier to letting the happyness out, my fingers gripping cold steal triggers trembling pleading to let the grey matter out
To decorate the walls in my own shade of misery.
But I'm here
It's strange, for a boy who never leave his room. To sit Under his washing line and listen to the birds sing. I lie on butter cups as I watch clouds dart between wire and cotton, how did I get here?
What God did I pray too?
Who did I pay?
When my world was over. My pistol In my hand. You happened.
The cloud that had allways sat just out of sight came running. Galloping . To give me water. To give me life,
A blue eyed blonde haired mirror of myself emerged,
Your smile Is warm. And kind. Like the evening sun I write this in,
Your touch was wholesome. And craved, you took the freyed edges of the tapastry that had become my life and started to spin a new story. You took the lead weights from my heart and melted them into sinkers so we could catch stories with our fingers, your skin felt like silk that I could never afford.
With each step you danced on egg shells as you try collect my broken pieces
And when a part of my was missing you filled it with a part of you. And now I find myself intertwined.
Here in this warm glow I notice something I've never had before.
The voices In my head have stopped chiming. The cries are far away.
Your gifts have not stopped coming. I pray your here to stay
In less time then anyone has ever been in my life you have done so much more, in less time then it took to knock me down you've built me into something more
I'll never forget the way I feel right now, here. Today.
Because each and every time I see you.
I know I'll stay this way
I tried >. < your a light house on a dark and desolate shore and no one has ever been better at guiding me home x
How hard is it to touch the ground
Ill step of the edge and fall upwards
As my body plumits down
No longer will i be around,
Ill not even make a sound