Another day, I see you aching
I see tears running down your face
Your tired eyes show what you’re thinking
But mouth is shut, no word to take
One pain is replaced by another
I see what it made to your body
There were some better days away
From this place, do you care to say?

We’re close, but barely close enough
To share your struggles with myself
The one thing that is on your mind
Something you would avoid each time
We talk, I can’t stop wonder why

I have a habit of not pushing
People too hard to talk about
Whatever bothers them on lonely
And hopeless day, I just wait up
My help is there if you would need it
I’ll hear you out and let you cry
I’ll do my best to make you feel like
The storm has passed and sun is out

It takes time to trust other people
To open fragile heart to them
Don’t push yourself until you’re ready
Until you’re sure I am the right one
Real friendship doesn’t know no distance
No time can break the special bond
It might take time for you to trust me
Later it’ll only make us strong

Will spend my days with the doors closed
Caused empty heart of better than a broken
And if you ever reach to my window
I will pretend I didn’t hear the knocking

You do your best to stay away
From any feelings, any hoping
Your caution wouldn’t let you stay
In front of me with your heart open

And even those friends that you have
Can never say they really know you
Cause you make sure to keep yourself
On lock, where no one will disturb you

It’s tough to go through life alone
Relying only on your strength
But then in times when no one’s there
You’re thankful for avoiding pain
Their absence could have caused your heart

This doubtful freedom, lonely freedom
Somehow encourages to fight
Against uncertainties & fears
And dreadful thoughts you have in mind

Wake up, open your eyes & see
All slippy roads that lead to trouble
All broken parts of what could be
A dream of yours, a dream of being happy
With someone else - it never meant to happen

Your cold blood’s never been a weakness.

It’s air you breath under the water
When others drown and reach the bottom
It’s sound you hear when you are stranded
And search for path that brings you home

It’s wind that comes in early morning
And clears your head from all the doubting
It’s only thing that heals your trauma
And helps to fight the dark inside

A broken heart is not an option
It’s dead end that’s prescribed for us
Don’t let a flash of your emotions
Trick you to think it’s gonna last

Don’t give a chance for other people
To sneak in your soul when you’re weak
Stand up for what you’re believing
Stand up against their empty dreams

16-12-2017

They say united we stand, but I am stronger on my own
Every attempt to break my walls will only make the distance wider
So why don’t you let go of all the fantasies you hold
And let the both of us decide on how to start another chapter

It might be even that you don’t hold any evil thought behind this
But I have learned with broken bones, it takes some time to realize that
It always ends up being burnt.
So why should we go through this pain and risk a peaceful state of mind
When ending’s already predicted and there’s no chance for us to stand
Through ashes of a shattered past?

I know that trusting other people can only take a part of you
And when they leave, they also leaving a mark on soul you’ve showed them to
So I believe that being lonely means keeping power to myself
And I believe that this is only way to avoid spiritual death

2-12-2017