I hate fate
All it's secrets
All it's uncertainty

Ask for flowers
You get weeds

Ask for love
You get regret

Ask for strength
You get weaker

Ask for patience
You waste time

I hate fate
All it's tricks
All it's games

Why do we say "Penny for your thoughts"?
If thoughts were so cheap
I'd have bought them all by now

I see them, the others like me

I see their eyes in search of others searching
The lonely, the longing, the temptation
I see it all because when I look in the mirror
I see it in my reflected eyes as they stare back

I'm so lonely i'm invisible as the other eyes around glaze over me
I am pellucid to the open world around me, cloaked by fear
I long to reach out to those who also shy away from the crowd
Who have those eyes empty and heavy with the desperation

Yet I tremble as I take those steps towards them
I smile and ready my hands, but pull away before I reach them
Before I get the chance to tell them that I see them
Because this feeling inside tears my hands away from those I long to grasp

The anger
The saddness
The loneliness
The fear
The anxiety
The depression
The embarrassment
The regret
Its all temporary
But the story is permanent
Don't lose sight of who you are or who you want to be as you try to fight through these feelings

One, two, three... books
Stacked next to were I rest
This one, that one, there all the best
Reach for a cup of tea
Adventure awaits on the next page
A story of love, death and mystery
A change of mind, A change of genre
Knowledge, skills and ideas
A new book, new life.

I don't need a man who wants a princess
I don't need those expectations
I won't paint my nails or wear high heels

I want someone who will understand
That some days are just for sitting indoors
Playing video games and ordering takeout

Sometimes you just want to hang out
Watch a horror movie or write a poem
I want someone who can understand some days are slow

I also want them to know that some days are fast
Sometimes you just need the rush of riding a skateboard or throwing a frisbee
Sometimes you just need to feel the notes of a guitar till your hands are numb

I don't want someone who thinks I am only silent and reserved
Because I will crush you in your favorite games
I will tire you out with my favorite things

I don't want someone who thinks they are temporary
I will write about you and immortalize you through my art
Keep your expectations away and I'll surprise you every day

The wheels collide with the jagged ground (As sometimes so do I)
Smoothly gliding across as if sailing through a calm ocean
The wind wrapping me in it's safe and calming embrace
Cleansing me of the worst parts of me
All the anger, anxiety, and sadness is left behind
As I roll over them on my magic board
In those moments I feel free, safe, and certain
I'm not confused or mistaken
I know for once what I'm feeling and what I'm doing
Although it may not be true
I feel as though this little wooden plank with wheels
Could take me anywhere
Across the sea or to another galaxy
For once I'm simply free