Am I a poor sister,
for constantly pushing them away,
in for losing my temper too easily?

they'll ask me to check the closet,
or underneath their beds,
"there's a monster".

but it makes me wonder,
maybe the true monster is me.

I love  "A"
I love the moment I saw you
The way your brown eyes meet mine
How the winter  wind moved your curls--
The moment was so perfect
the same way
The moment was perfect
When you said
"I love you."
For the first time
I love you, my love <A3

Fck you for hurting me when you promised you never would.

Fck you for being so inconsiderate.

Fck you for not trying to fix us, instead, leaving.

Fck you for not being my friend after, like you said you would be.

Fck you for moving an hour away.

Fck you for making all my favorite songs, TV shows, and movies make me think of you.

Fck you for being my dream.

Fck you for my whole family knowing and talking about you like it doesn't hurt.

Fck you for being okay without me.

Fck you for making me fall in love with you.

You tell me you'll love me forever,
More than anything,
forever.
maybe "forever" meant something else to you,
like "until next month".
unfortunately when I promised forever,
I meant the "forever" kind of forever.

Aching heart and mind
Needs touch of a caring soul
Yearning company.

You are my mind anymore;
In each fold and crack,
lies you and our memories