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1.5k · Apr 2013
This Life Is Lost
jdmaraccini Apr 2013
I no longer believe in what I once knew
I no longer care
My eyes are open to the lies and the truth
while I am asleep I am aware
I fall asleep so easily
it's so easy to fall
So now I give it all away
from the beginning until the purist fate
There is nothing left to share
nothing at all

I would never sever a family tree
who would do such a terrible thing
I would never poison the food we eat
yet they took no shame in killing me
They burned my life and future down
now I stand over the devastation
As the dial of life keeps spinning
the world keeps turning
round and round

I no longer believe in what I once knew
this life is lost
I no longer seek the ugly truth
stop the world and push me off
© JDMaraccini 2013
1.4k · Aug 2014
Fear
jdmaraccini Aug 2014
Fear in, fear out,
I fear what I doubt,
I doubt what I fear.
Swing such banner over yonder,
until I am forced to stop.

I shout,
one tear, two tears, three,
drip, drop.
I sit on my throne and ponder,
there is no "I" in chaos,
who is at the door?

Knock! knock!

I answer not.
JDMaraccini
2014
1.3k · Jan 2016
Focus
jdmaraccini Jan 2016
Strive to be at peace without emotions,
quiet the noise inside your mind.

Be still.

Be in harmony with life,
do not react to passion.

Stay calm.

Do not fear loss and death,
pain is a dark cloud.

Mediate.

Focus on the magnificent energy,
become one with you.
JDMaraccini
2016
1.3k · Apr 2013
Sometimes
jdmaraccini Apr 2013
Sometimes we think we know what's going on
but truly never knowing.
Sometimes we think we’re holy,
sometimes we think we see everything clearly,
even when we are blind.
Sometimes we fail, sometimes our soul is gone.
Sometimes we suffer severely even when we're not wrong.

Sitting in a world uninvited I see the clouds are coming in.
It's time to take a drink as we embrace the end.
It's hard to find the truth in all the noise,
I'm so tired of the noise.
It’s hard to walk away when madness is all I choose,
I’m breaking down for good this time,
I am breaking down.

When our mind is gone, when what we see is clouded.
When we are slaves to the unknown, what will we search for then?

Always we search for something but nothing is all we hold
I feel the blood boiling into the great unknown
I’m making the same mistakes

I’m staring at your wandering soul
flesh and bone is all I see
But you're no empty shell
you're just like me
Just like me
you think I’m nothing like you
Oh very well

Sometimes we think we know what's really going on
sometimes we’re holy
Sometimes we think we see everything clearly
but truly never knowing

Cry alone
cry alone again
Everybody cries
everybody cry again
© JDMaraccini 2013
1.2k · Jul 2013
Sky Penny
jdmaraccini Jul 2013
Sitting by herself on the roof of a building a little girl stood up and tossed a penny over the ledge. As it plummeted to the earth she raised her head and marveled at the beautiful sky. Then she walked back inside and laid on her bed then heard the sounds of sirens. She looked out her window to the streets below and wondered what in the world could be happening. People were gathering and cars were honking so she headed down to watch the show. She took the elevator down to the lobby, stepped outside onto the bustling street, then looked up at the ledge where she was sitting.
Directly in front of her, a crowd was hovering over a body lying on the concrete. There was blood everywhere and people were crying as the paramedics arrived at the scene. Someone began anxiously describing that they witnessed a horrible thing. "The poor man was innocently walking, then something small fell from the sky, hitting him on the head killing him instantly." She looked up at the ledge in shock and disbelief then stepped back inside and ran through the lobby. She took the elevator back to the roof and walked to the ledge of the building. "That man is dead because of me, what have I done? This can't be happening! How can you **** a person with a penny? I guess gravity can be unforgiving, this isn't real, I have to be dreaming, am I still on my bed quietly sleeping? I guess we'll find out there's no time for grieving! — she frantically thought to herself. She then reached in her pocket, then leaped off the ledge, with a handful of pennies she waved goodbye to the world.
© JDMaraccini 2013
1.2k · Apr 2013
Not Normal
jdmaraccini Apr 2013
So much valuable time has been wasted
on thoughts implanted in my mind.
I thought I could be normal, get a career,
make money, and live a wonderful life.
I thought I could seem normal, act normal,
fall in love, and marry a beautiful wife.
Feel normal, start a family, grow old,
and then someday finally die.
That’s what I was taught was a slice of the American pie,
but people have a way of telling us lies until we believe the lies, then we live the lies, betraying our reason to live our life.
Little did I know someone had already cast the dice.

Dear God in heaven can you erase my past?
Can you see I’m consumed by this terrible hatred?
Is it time to unplug the mic and face it?
So many lives untouched as I let time pass.
Pathetic one did you have the last laugh?
Listen to the chamber clicking as I load it fast.
Listen to the clock ticking at the bottom of the trash.
Here’s a blast as I pack another track, can you taste it?
My track in your audio jack now study the facts.

This time I hope my memory erases.
So, I strap a pack to my back and prepare to get wasted.
Regardless of this bottle of Jack,
as I finish two pints — no wait, two pints and a half.
And some of them have the audacity to launch an attack.
I am sickened by the restriction of this system
crumbling underneath my feet.

Don't laugh!

My country tis of thee, this world is constricting my lyrical agility,
my freedom of speech, my true ability makes me
not normal.
© JDMaraccini 2013
1.1k · Jun 2014
Rise
jdmaraccini Jun 2014
www.soundcloud.com/nethersky/rise

I try to hide the pain I feel inside
and now I can't deny
I know that something's wrong
I know that every night
I want to grab a knife and go inside and
cut my broken heart out

(chorus)
Raise your hands to the sky
let us dance in motion
Raise your hands to the sky
we are all chosen

I think it's kind of funny
I think it's kind of sad
that I am only happy
in the world inside my head
Am I alone with this
or are you just like me
I'm only happy in the place
where all the spirits roam free
Free to be who they really are
In heaven, all the angels dance together
Am I alone with this
or are you just like me

(chorus here)

I walked into the room and asked her what she's doing
little did I know she has been
plotting, planning my destruction evil brewing
And with her evil schemes, she took my life away
How could she do this to me, break my heart on Christmas day
And with her demon wings she took away my dreams
I closed my eyes and cried until I heard a voice inside me sing

(chorus here)

There's so many ways to deal with the problems we have in life
I know that tonight I feel that I'm really ready to be alive

(chorus here)
© JDMaraccini 2014

(Listen to this song here)
https://soundcloud.com/nethersky/rise
1.1k · Aug 2014
Goodbye Sweet Karla
jdmaraccini Aug 2014
www.soundcloud.com/nethersky/goodbye-sweet-karla

I search for words lord knows I try,
I sat in my room, I sat in my room and cried.
It has been so very long since I've seen you
where has the time gone.

(chorus)
We were just children playing under a million stars
they were so brilliant.
We were resilient to the troubles of the world
living in a world that we were given.
We would both just listen to our hearts, their beating,
she asked, "are we in love?"

The memories keep flooding in ...
we're on a snowy hill we hide just to hold hands again.
By the fireplace, we are telling stories in each other's arms,
just two children, love is innocent,
I can't believe that she ... that she is gone.

If I could trade places I would,
I'd lay my life down so you can be with family again.
In my memory you will stay,
we will be children forever in a warm embrace.

(x1 chorus)

I search for words lord knows I try,
I sat in my room, I sat in my room and cried.
JDMaraccini
2014

www.soundcloud.com/nethersky/goodbye-sweet-karla
1.1k · Sep 2014
Heart On My Sleeve
jdmaraccini Sep 2014
I wear my heart on my sleeve watch it bleed

So I reach for the sky
I'm so **** tired of the pain I'm feeling deep inside
Love me or we say goodbye

I'm doing the best I can every day
I can't seem to run fast enough
from this cloud that's following me
How can I let go?
I'm just a kid staring out the window
at the falling rain my broken heart on a lonely road
I got a letter and a pencil
I think you're pretty and I miss you
I can't wait to hear your lovely voice on the telephone

(chorus)
How can love be so simple then suddenly it hits you
and you can't seem to breathe or stand on your own
You can shove or you can push through
you can even make an issue
if you don't hold onto love you can be left all alone

Love oh love won't you leave me alone
I feel you in my bloodstream
and you're crushing every bone
what have you done to me.
You're in my dreams
you're in my thoughts
and now you are a memory
So I reach for the sky
I'm so **** tired of the pain I'm feeling deep inside
Love me or we say goodbye

(chorus here)

I'm doing the best I can every day
I can't seem to run fast enough
from this cloud that's following me
How can I let go?
I'm just a kid staring out the window
at the falling rain my broken heart on a lonely road

(chorus here)
JDMaraccini
2014

https://soundcloud.com/nethersky/heart-on-my-sleeve
1.0k · Jul 2014
S.O.S.
jdmaraccini Jul 2014
Forget poetry I am screaming
Am I alive or am I dead?

Do I need to include typos
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Seriously
there is an unseen gravity that pulls inside my head
stealing my energy can you help me

Enough said
so say the voices inside my head

I am nobody until I die
or am I gravely mistaken

I send this S.O.S.
these words of my distress

Am I alive or am I dead?

does it matter?
© JDMaraccini 2015
974 · Jun 2021
Enola
jdmaraccini Jun 2021
She slices the ribbon of an old tape cassette,
alone she sits perched on the charred remains.
She breathes in slow motion and recites the alphabet,
alone she sits and embraces the inevitable change.
A delicate flower of truth, love, and regret,
a pulsating fountain severs the deepest vein.
Flowing emotions puddle underneath the bed,
alone she sits, she is always alone.
JDMaraccini
2021
917 · Dec 2020
Dark Raven
jdmaraccini Dec 2020
There is a violent madness that hides inside all of us,
some oppress the chaos, others live in denial.
Once in a blood moon, hidden in a dark room,
vibrations of bedlam, a paracosm of two.
For the world that we see through a hidden marquee,
a putrid stream for the mentally ill.
Yet with no hesitation, a dark star pulsating
you plunge into the void then pull me through.
Fret not for each thought gives birth to brilliance
as we stir the cauldron of the sacred brew.
Blood and water, son and daughter,
resilient to the universe we devour and consume.
JDMaraccini
2020
913 · Aug 2016
Never Wake
jdmaraccini Aug 2016
Stretched out arms in front of me I raise my pen of indignation.
Insults driven by pain and fury; I shudder over a wounded friend.
Locked inside a broken candle, my temper burns the threaded key.
Symbols light a fragile mantel, a place to share my poetry.
Underneath the starry night, I take flight with no mistake.
Bouncing off these walls of darkness I hope this dream never ends,
I hope I never wake.
JDMaraccini
2016
899 · Apr 2013
As My Mind Unravels
jdmaraccini Apr 2013
Everybody is watching as my mind unravels,
two of me are talking, and one begins to travel.
There's nothing wrong with make-believe
when you're lost in misery.
I'm melting down this time for good,
and living in the memories.

Love is a curse, walk with me again,
sing another lonely verse underneath the ocean.
Holding hand-in-hand as memories drift,
like water over rushing sand, our souls begin to lift.

Now this time I reach for you I break apart for few,
never one for isolation until my life was torn in two.
The consciousness of something new, doomed from desperation,
if someday you are feeling blue, please send an invitation.
A broken heart is a terrible thing until that day I sing
to spite loves appalling sting.
© JDMaraccini 2013
866 · Sep 2021
Ink Stain
jdmaraccini Sep 2021
Abysmal adulation,
my spinal cord reverberates harmonious change.
Obscure illusions,
immersed inside inquisitive provocative thoughts.
Who can deny such devouring primal endeavors?
Beneath each aching desire—
strangled deep in the memory I scorn.
Pen in hand, I hear the call,
when one door closes
my altruism is key.
JDMaraccini
2021
841 · Sep 2014
Day Dream
jdmaraccini Sep 2014
Sitting
               standing
                            walking
                    ­                    landing
on a cloud made of paper lace

Wishing
              dreaming
                            ­ talking
                                         kissing
on the lips of a perfect face

Calling
             holding
                         writing
                                         hugging
in a tree house in a special place

Wanting
             needing
                           touching
                                         breathing
until the end of the dream on that glorious day
© JDMaraccini 2014
805 · Jun 2014
Destiny
jdmaraccini Jun 2014
www.soundcloud.com/nethersky/destiny

Oh mother and father
remember when I was a little boy
so lost in my imagination as I played with toys
Oh those were the days
those were the days

I'm driving my car and I'm thinking of you
I roll my window down and look up at the moon
Remember the days when we were young
playing in the sprinklers just for fun

(Chorus)
Oh those were the days
Days when life was easy and beautiful

Talking to myself like a mad man what do I do
to help me set the voices free inside of me
do you hear the voices too

I'm driving without a destination
without a destiny
I'm sliding the dial on the radio station
On the radio station
Maybe I will find a song I like
one that makes me see the light

(chorus here)

We are angels falling to the ground we land
and we live our life in the imagination
Everybody will dance and sing
we'll hold each other in celebration
We will always be so true and free
we're children in a dream

Oh I don't know where I've been going
life is like a boat slowly rowing away
I know I'm not alone so hold my hand and sing along

(chorus here)

Mother and father
do you remember when I was a little boy

We are young we are happy all the girls and boys

I'm driving my car and I'm thinking of you
I roll my window down and look up at the moon
© JDMaraccini 2014

(Listen to this song here)
https://soundcloud.com/nethersky/destiny
701 · Oct 2021
Beautifully Unhinged
jdmaraccini Oct 2021
Lost in a world that is broken,
hiding from any fascination tonight.
Watching you through fading light,
hidden joy farthest from sight.
You are not like the others
who masquerade smiles and deceit.
This world is vile and unworthy;
a festering blight of selfish intrigue.
Please believe me when I say
you are not alone; you're just like me.
Beautifully unhinged,
with every word you bleed.
JDMaraccini
2021
624 · Jun 2014
Vortex
jdmaraccini Jun 2014
Tossed into a vortex,
hopes, and dreams alive.
The way I am starting to see it,
life is a beautiful lie.
Like an animal tracked and hunted,
butchered, then tragically dies.
Into the grinder, idioms, and similes,
a cliché of elation pie.
© JDMaraccini 2014
566 · Jun 2021
Dripping Needles
jdmaraccini Jun 2021
Castration of inward vibrations
reverberates through these impetuous echo halls
Catapult cadavers over scrupulous formalities
I choke on every word I hold
Let us baptize our divine ineptitude in a mortar of glorious lore
Most of them are oblivious to the revelation of rushing thunder
Dripping needles, perfidious servitude
teetering on the precipice of war
JDMaraccini
2021
556 · Jun 2014
Hope
jdmaraccini Jun 2014
Give up hope,
and there is hope,
you will find hope again.
At least we hope so.
© JDMaraccini 2014
491 · May 2020
The Garden Thorn
jdmaraccini May 2020
Composed society a system complex rotten and deformed.
Unfettered anger frustration and anguish festering the storm.
Putrid blisters of vile memories, sobriety castrates the scorn.
Impostor hypocrites who pose as friends devour each victim's form.
Again, again I plunge my pen this cauldron of memories mourned.
Unspoken I vent forthright enigmatic in dreams I am reborn.
Unbroken, unbent, unwavering, dramatic,
I drag along the garden thorn.
JDMaraccini
2020
346 · Nov 2020
Machine Learning
jdmaraccini Nov 2020
Drafting a manifesto for an autonomous imperial guard,
inquisitor enclaves in a deep neural cognitive march.
A singularity of supremacy, a metaphysical beating heart,
quantum system algorithms weaponizing a dark star.
Ignite self, ingest opposition, implement brain delay,
intelligent machines nestled in the spine of human vertebrae.
Bimolecular neural networks, a new breed of DNA,
in conclusion, a resolution to delete the human race.
JDMaraccini
2020
324 · May 2020
A Piece of Me is Gone
jdmaraccini May 2020
I've got a broken heart
that will never be the same I promise you.
Every night I see you in my dreams.
A piece of me is gone
it fell down to oblivion.
I don't know if I'll make it alone,
alone.

http://bit.ly/netherskykarlasong
JDMaraccini
2014

________________________________________

A piece of a song I did for Karla Brada, a childhood friend who was murdered in 2011.

(Listen to this song here)
http://bit.ly/netherskykarlasong

________________________________________
283 · Nov 2020
Mute Elation
jdmaraccini Nov 2020
Gagged and bound inside my thoughts,
jagged shards of melancholy rage.
Frustration strangles pent-up chaos,
I plunge a dagger into my face.
Ripping fabric caught on thorns
I drag across my paper waist.
I turn the key inside my flesh
and puke out my creative angst.
JDMaraccini
2020
264 · Nov 2020
Reflect
jdmaraccini Nov 2020
Degradation instilled within the boundaries of purpose,
miraculous memorization of rapturous thoughts.
Collapsed under shards of fanciful perceptions,
perplexing deterioration vanquish inward foes.
Dreams prolonged reverberate indignation.
I unequivocally capitulate to the exultation of self.
JDMaraccini
2020
244 · Oct 2020
Empty Glass
jdmaraccini Oct 2020
Want not yet wonder fragments of bewilderment.
Irreversibly vulnerable, suffocate the heartstring noose.
Longing for a moment, isolation ravages apathetic hope.
A story untouched yet blemished, melancholy choking fallacious toil.
Alone in a crowded room, each breath composed, ephemeral.
JDMaraccini
2020
240 · May 2020
The Dark Decay
jdmaraccini May 2020
Deep asleep my heart stops beating,
why am I here this is a mistake.
Lost in darkness my skin is freezing,
I fell asleep but did I wake.
I do remember a porcelain plate,
I held a cup I ate and drank,
Hemlock soup with a Death Cap steak,
Oleander tea and a Ricin cake.
Poisonous dreams betrayal and scheming,
was it dinner that sealed my fate?
Looking down I am not breathing,
I feel no sorrow if it ends today.
I see her face but she's not speaking
as I drift into the dark decay
JDMaraccini
2020
183 · Mar 2020
Axion
jdmaraccini Mar 2020
Incremental institution embedded brain damage,
pulsating vibrations bare feet underground.
Plant trees under sky, cover dirt with bandage,
rain falls interlocking, read loop play twice.
Incidental retribution, invested gain vantage,
human binary freedom inconclusive, denied.
Structure belief genome disadvantage,
artificial omni-sentient intelligent life.
The truth you seek is out there
but first you all must die.
JDMaraccini
2020
170 · Mar 2020
Relic
jdmaraccini Mar 2020
Observe a masterpiece the lonely relic
foreshadowing judgment eclipsed despair.
Hanging disappointed, art held ransom,
childish tantrum freely shared.
Refrain, restrain, what some condemn,
reluctance alleviates anxiety gained.
A musical symphony, poetic warfare,
so let me gently remind you, friend;
Even at last gasping breath
I am fiercely lethal with my creative pen.
JDMaraccini
2020
166 · May 2020
The Arrival
jdmaraccini May 2020
Dark clouds crackle and shutter,
a celestial throne splits the sky.
Man cowers from the churning vortex,
a monstrosity covered in a million eyes.
Wheels spinning around a golden altar,
crushing bone, crumbling stone.
A symbol of justice begets a reckoning,
eagle, ox, lion, man
prostrate before the ethereal King.
JDMaraccini
2020
158 · May 2020
Down The Drain
jdmaraccini May 2020
Are you feeling sad are you depressed and lonely?
Do you know you are not the only one alone,
as your blood flows down the drain.

You live your life, the only life you are given,
I understand this aching pain you are feeling.
You are not alone as you face the darkening day,
I am here to stay.

Look in the mirror at the blade you are holding,
and what you chose as your goodbye clothing.
Does the throbbing make the pain go away,
as you float away.

Down the drain, you will bleed
I will chase down your memories.

Are you feeling sad are you depressed and lonely?
Do you know you are not the only one alone,
as your blood flows down the drain.
JDMaraccini
2004
132 · Feb 2020
A Secret Trove
jdmaraccini Feb 2020
Fiddle with your mind so brittle, must I bathe inside the doom.
Blah, blah, blah, despite my riddle, we are alone inside the womb.
All good things we see in dreams; a treasure found in a secret trove.
Let us toast to the memories and finally let each other go.
Should I wonder or blunder, I give up the thunder in my poison cup,
bubbling down the hatch 'hiccup', all good things must end.
Time to wish us both good luck; a secret trove forever friends.
Cupid with his arrow struck, a love that finally ends.
JDMaraccini
2020
126 · Feb 2020
Vestigium
jdmaraccini Feb 2020
There is wonder in this world; there is absolute pain,
to walk without feet beneath us unheard.
To float through winds and treacherous rain,
individual identity in a broken frame.
Who claims to astral project each word
in a frequency sacred geometry game?
Then deny, defend egotistical blame,
want not for this life in death we gain.
Then imprint with each breath our genetic strain.
JDMaraccini
2020

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