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S G Dec 2014
Placebo effect-
That's all it is.
An improper reaction to an absent chemical.
I believe it's there, oh I do,
But it isn't.
It wasn't.
It never will be.
But I will suffocate. Choke. Sputter. Convulse.
Because of the poison you injected into me.
(You never did.)
On my deathbed I blame you.
"He did this! He killed me!"
You're not capable of ******.
You'd never hurt me, right?
You said so yourself.
But you did, didn't you?
How else would I be here?
Dead, or close to it-
And no one to blame but you.
"He poisoned me!"
They'll believe me.
I warned my friends.
Told them some of the truth.
But what's the real truth?
You'd never hurt me...
But I know you would.
And every time you smiled,
Or said something sweet,
You'd slip your poison into me.
(I tell myself.)
You'd never hurt me.
I only tell myself you would.
S G Dec 2014
blue and red
blue and red kind of contrast don't they? i think they do at least a little because when your face was inches above mine and red with effort (thank you) your eyes looked bluer than ever and it was perfect thank you!
i don't know the word to describe that look but i hope i looked as beautiful as you did. i hope i always look beautiful when i'm with you or maybe i don't because would you hurt something beautiful?
just please - please let me be your baby and you've called me that three times now three! and granted they're all rasped while you're inside of me but please never stop saying that and maybe please one day say it to me when we're not touching but please just let me be your baby. baby blue eyes i'll wear a baby doll dress and you'll call me baby oh you
OH you you will never understand this but everything is bright white light and everything other than you is muted and dull but your eyes are blue perfect blue trained on me in this tiny room between my knees and i'll let you know now if you leave i'll never cast a spell on you maybe if you stay i won't either i'm paralyzed and i can only use my eyes and my tongue and my mind which is working oh-so-hard to figure out what to do here because this is a mystery and oh my god i love the way you look at me when you explore which buttons to press to elicit a response oh doctor oh doctor i need a doctor
please get me medicine
please make me better
S G Dec 2014
it only makes sense
that a girl who wants to die
should fall for a man who wants to **** her
S G Dec 2014
Oh I'm so dead.
I'm so dead and you're he's so alive he's so alive and he's up at 1130 and i'm fast asleep and he's hours away and i'm in the green-walled room and thunder can't be written about with gentle drops of rain but thunder can be written about with thunder so CRASH **** HOWL SHRIEK because you he is THUNDER and what am i? you HE is thunder and i am lightning and he brings me to life and I am SCREAMING "oh god oh god" and you he is grinning as much as he can at this moment and my throat is bare (why) and i want you him to treat me physically like you do emotionally and if it had always been this way then i'd be dead at the bottom of the ditch you dug when you smirked like that
bleeding and bruised and unrecognizable and would you look at me look at me look at me but no you'd fill the grave with dirt and your heart would still be oh so empty but you're just a boy a ******* boy and I look up and see starts and galaxies and then I see you and thunder crashes again and I'm not screaming and there's no lightning and my throat is still bare but so is everything else and our sweat has long since dried and you're a doctor aren't you but you'd rather cut me up than stitch me closed and I'm still bleeding and you're still smiling *but you're just a BOY and I am so much more than just a girl.
S G Dec 2014
Smudged sky
(too many children and too many fingerprints)
And a dark
and light
presence
Black as night
Lighter than air
Circling
Drifting
Spiraling
Swaying
I want to be you!
Lift my hopes with your wings
Carry my heart as you soar
I want to be you.
Circling
Drifting
Spiraling
Swaying
Black lightning on a lugubrious template
Please,
Oh, please!
Let me be you!
Limits expounded only by winds
Walls are- quite simply,
Meaningless
And I am all-powerful.
These racked limbs will cause no woe
When I am sailing peacefully above
These sunken forearms
Replaced with strong wings
These twisted ankles
Spreading into scaled talons
This otiose body
Looking on with vacant eyes
As I crest over mountains
And swoop into valleys,
These gleaming white squares never suited me
This curved beak will serve me better
And this silly yellow skin
Never offered me protection
From wind, nor rain
But these sleek dark feathers
Make me fast as a jet.
Once I was sad and grey and hollow,
But I will be strong and fearless and whole.
S G Dec 2014
Satin sheets
Like when daddy used to pull them up and down in quick succession
Sending out pretty little waves of air
Searching for you
Like echolocation
And they'd puddle around you
Like tiny hills and valleys
And you
a smooth little rock
Ensconced in a blanket of snow
All covered up
stay there
It's warm, and quiet, and soft
The light filters in in slow pulses
You let your eyes shut over sepia screens
(you wish this was eternal)
S G Dec 2014
Spirits and feeling
And something other than nothing
And fire in your belly
And dancing nerves in your fingers
And baby they've never danced like ice & fire
But when ice & fire dance you better watch
Your body's gonna burn down to bones
And we'll turn those to dust too, baby trust me
Don't you trust me?
I'llmakeyoufeelagain
I can make you feel again
Baby, the music's starting
So pay attention.
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