i've never understood love,
its always seemed like a tug-of-war.

why even fall
if only one walks through the door?

people lie
and people cheat

i guess that's the reward
for thinking love is cheap

if you love me so much,
why do you keep leaving me?

im sad.
i dont know why. i dont even know if theres a reason.
i wish i did so i could make it stop.

the world will still turn on it’s axis,
even though you told me you didn’t like my lashes.

it will still turn on its axis when you don’t call me one night.

it will still turn when you stop looking at me as often as you do.

it will still turn when i move on.
when you stop treating me like i’m some pawn.

and even though i’ll feel like the world is ending as i know it, the world will turn on its axis.

i will feel as if the weight of ten suns has been put upon my shoulders.

but one day, maybe not now, but one day; the weight will be lifted from my shoulders.
my life will continue as if it never got colder.

and the world will continue to spin on its axis.

i can feel it,
you’re slowly going your own way.

you’re going to leave,
but that’s okay.

i’ve accepted the fact that you’re not always going to be with me,
i just didn’t expect it to happen this quickly.

i love you, though,
no matter what.

it’s okay for you to go,
no matter how deep it cuts.

last night i begged and pleaded with you for hours,

tried telling you that i deserved to bloom like a flower.

i’ve never asked you to save me,

but now i’m asking you nicely.

please, let me be happy,

and please, i beg of you, let it be for me.

amen.