She was stuck - wanted to move on and be free,
I still loved her, and she still loved me.
How was I going to solve this problem and end it,
How was I going to pick up her pieces and mend it?
I devised an idea - a very tricky plan,
Multilayered, complex and hard to understand.
I had to make her think it was her choice to let go,
To do this took weeks and initially was slow.
She became rude, mean and I felt tormented,
It was not part of the plan but helped implement it.
I called her out on her rude awful ways,
She got so angry - the fire set ablaze.
Cut off all connections just as I foresaw,
I had done the impossible - but now I was no more.
The hardest things in life come at great cost,
Even though I know I did the right thing - my heart is lost.
She now thinks it was all her idea,
Maybe one day I'll get to explain it all to her and make it clear.
Then she'll see the brilliance and the sacrifice I made,
To lose the one you love - the highest price paid.
I loved her dearly but she had changed drastically too,
She was cruel, mean, hurtful and I promise this is all true.
It made carrying out the plan a lot easier I shall say,
Nonetheless I will never forget that day.
The plan was put into motion and she cut all ties,
She could now finally move on - our relationship was at a demise.
She was stubborn which made it easier to do,
As long as she thinks it was her choice the plan will carry through.
So she gets to be happy,
So what about me?
I carry on knowing I ultimately have made her gleeful and free,
I feel sad from time to time,
I miss her a lot - after all she was once mine.
One day I hope to sit down with her and explain what I had done,
Show her that it wasn't easy, awesome or fun.
Anyway E, I don't know if you miss me,
Once upon a time the ironically named 'Fatty'.
I do not know if you will ever read this,
However I can say without a doubt - you I truly miss.